Candice's Metaphysical - Mystical Tea Party

2012-02-13T14:28:00.001-08:00

A postive thinking article on just how powerful your thoughts are, and how that effects you in all areas of your life. http://su.pr/4tOpYQ

2012-01-29T14:34:00.001-08:00

attract more customers with hypnotic writing thundersky http://bit.ly/xBeNcg

Life Purpose and Passion Meditation Exercise with Archangel Nathaniel

2012-01-21T21:19:00.000-08:00

Candice is hoping to raise some funding to take a film course

2012-01-18T09:53:00.001-08:00

Candice has aspired to not only work in the film industry, but to write and produce her own films.

At the ripe young age of 16, she wrote her first screenplay and a stage play at at 18.

Since then, she has been to college and received diplomas in Theatre Production and Design, Music Peformance / Composition, Recording Arts Management and has taken over 10 years of classical voice training.

Candice also spent five years working in the film industry in Toronto in many different capacities both in front and behind the camera, so she could hone her skills and learn what the film biz is all about. From her first day on set, she was bit by "the bug".

When the film industry fell apart in 2002 and there was little or no work to be had, she felt as though she lost a part of herself, and has been wanting to get back into it, only this time, with her own films.

She has also been on a spiritual journey since she was 19 years old and has since become a Reiki Master / Teacher, Angelic Awakenings Practitioner, and now teaches others how to connect to their Angelic team, do healing work and most importantly, helps others to get on track with their own life purpose.

Candice's plan is not just to make any old film, but to make spiritually based films that not only will serve to assist in the awakening of the consciousness of everyone she can, but films that will entertain and appeal to a larger market than that of the traditional spiritual cinema crowd.

For the past 6 weeks, Candice has been forwarding her training and is taking an intensive screenwriting course that so far, has is not only making her a better writer, but has proven to be life changing for her personally.

Candice's plan is to continue her training into the areas of directing, producing and all things film making, so that she can take the films she has written, and turn them into powerful films that will eventually make it to the big screen.

After spending the past few weeks researching, she finally found a course that's local, which will be significantly cheaper than the original plan of going to LA to take some courses.

Click on the link below to contribute as little, or as much as you are able and wish to. She's not even asking for help with the entire course fee...just a portion of it. No amount is too small. Every little bit counts!

Candice Creelman performing at Unity Church Calgary

2011-05-18T11:10:00.000-07:00

2012 - A Message of Hope

2011-03-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

Energy Healing Wolf (revised)

2011-03-27T21:06:00.000-07:00

The Wayseer Manifesto

2011-03-16T15:57:00.000-07:00

Why woman are different from men and vice versa By Amanda Gore

2011-03-06T09:58:00.000-08:00

Transformational Oasis Evening Event

2011-03-05T20:36:00.001-08:00

Date: Friday, May 6, 2011

Time: 7pm-11pm(ish)

Location: Private Residence - Okotoks, AB (rsvp for info)

Admission: $22

Join us for an intimate & safe gathering for those who are willing and want to spend time remembering their soul's purpose & creating change in their lives. This will be a profoundly life changing event, that will be held on the first Friday every month. The first event being on May 6, 2011.

You will have an experience that will be free-flowing, revitalizing, tranquil, expansive, playful, connecting and so much more.

Take yourself... out of the ordinary and into the Extraordinary. You will have a chance to experience deep guided experience to connect to your inner self & soul, lightbody activations, techniques to release stress and tension in the body, drumming & sound healing, and energy & body work. There will also be space created for you to meditate & journal privately, a space to socialize and network with others and have some refreshments.

Every gathering will embody a different theme, so no two of these events will be the same. Future events may also include movement & dance, mini facials / manicures, various body & energy work practitioners, foot baths, creative exploration, and more.

Our first event will be centered around Transformation. The evening will begin with a warm and enveloping welcome into the space by your Oasis tour guide. Once everyone has arrived, we will then gather in the main room to co-create an opening ceremony to create a sacred space for the evening.

From there, you will be invited to participate in whatever activity that you feel drawn to experience:

1) Meditate or journal in silence in a sacred, calming space in the meditation room.

2) Receive a Lightbody activation that will help to raise your vibration and connect to your Soul Self.

3) Go on a guided journey to connect with your highest self, Angel, spirit guide or power animal. You will learn how to tap into your inner wisdom to receive direct personal, inner guidance.

5) Connect with your nervous system in a gentle and allowing way to release tension, stress and pain from the physical body. This technique will help you to achieve deep relaxation, ease of movement & a greater range of motion. Fantastic!

6) Spend time connecting with other of like mind and spirit in the social room.

7) Because our physical bodies also require nurturing, we will also have healthy snacks, tea and other refreshments set up in the kitchen.

Whether you are meditating or journaling in silence in the meditation room, or socializing or going on a guided journey, you will have an experience that will take you to deeper levels of your being and leave you feeling refreshed, replenished and connected.

To Register:

Call Candice - 403-828-7395
or Edsia 403-618-9699

Upcoming Workshops...

2011-03-03T11:23:00.001-08:00

Reiki Level 1 - March 11-13, 2001

Reiki is a Japanese form of energetic relaxation therapy, which helps to stimulate and balance physical, mental, emotional and energetic systems. Benefits include relaxation, rejuvination, better sleep, mental clarity, focus, inner peace and calm. Reiki is also a tool for self-discovery and a spiritual path to enlightenment.

Level One Reiki is a 2.5 day intensive course, held over a Friday evening and Saturday / Sunday, which inc...ludes powerful and sacred level one attunements, information on the history of Reiki, and ways of applying this unique science.

Specific hand positions covering the head, front and back of the body, and their corresponding physical, mental, emotional and spiritual significance are extensively covered. Instructions are given on how to utilize Reiki with family, friends, plants, animals, food and water. The benefits of using Reiki in a group are discussed and an actual group treatment is experienced.

No Prerequisite to be able to attend this class. It's suited for those who are brand new to healing and also for those who are more advanced practitioners of other healing modalities.

Date: March 11-13 (Fri evening, Sat/Sun)
Times: Friday - 7pm-10:30pm, Sat/Sun - 10am - 5pm (both days)
Address: Please call for info
Energy Exchange:$200 (incl. manual, certificate, healthy snacks, herbal tea)

Please note:A $50 non-refundable deposit is required by March 7.

The deposit can be transferred to another course date if necessary. We take credit card, PayPal (a 5% processing fee will be added), email money transfer or cash.

AngelSong Intensive Workshop - April 1-3, 2011

Join Master Angel Oracle and Reiki Teacher, Candice Creelman for a two and a half day journey into the realm of the Angels, Archangels and Ascended Masters.

This workshop focuses on developing your intuitive skills and how to communicate with Archangels, Angels, Ascended Masters, Guides and Higher Self, using various communication tools such as Angel cards, writing, channeling, visualizing, and more.

You will learn what these powerful beings are, what their place is in the Universe and how you can learn to work with them consciously and with intention.

You will also be taken on a guided journey to meet your personal Angels, and learn several other techniques that will help you to communicate with these beautiful and powerful beings of Light for yourself or others.

Working with your Angels, can illuminate your life with love, abundance and peaceful energy. You will leave with a sense that you are never alone, and that you are loved and supported unconditionally by these powerful beings.

Date: April 1-3 (Fri evening, Sat/Sun)
Times: Friday - 7pm-10:30pm, Sat/Sun - 10am - 5pm (both days)
Address: Please call for info
Energy Exchange: $277 (incl. manual, certificate, healthy snacks, herbal tea)

Please note: A $50 non-refundable deposit is required by March 27. The deposit can be transferred to another course date if necessary. We take credit card, PayPal (a 5% processing fee will be added), email money transfer or cash.

To register for these courses:

Contact: Candice Creelman
Phone: 403-828-7395
Website: http://www.thunderbirdsky.com/

2011-01-27T10:50:00.000-08:00

Yay, we've finally got our first 'deal of the day' featured deal with SwarmJam. For our first deal, which you have another 2 days to take advantage of, is a 1.5 hour, Reiki & Reading combo session. Regularly priced at $133 - for the next 2 days and via this link only, now $65. Grab yours while you can!

SwarmJam - Calgary's Sweet Deals

www.swarmjam.com

SwarmJam presents a deal each day in Calgary featuring great discounts at restaurants, spas, gyms and health clubs, wellness spas, massage therapy, outdoor activites and more.

This offer is available for both new and current clients and students as well. Please pass it on to anyone who you think might benefit.

Kirk Nugent: Signs Of The Times ( I Need You To Remember Part 4)

2011-01-19T09:52:00.000-08:00

Healing & Talking Circle for Practitioners (of all modalities)

2011-01-18T10:50:00.001-08:00

We start the circle with a traditional talking circle for about an hour, giving participants a chance to speak what's in your heart. We'll then take a short bre...ak, and then get into the healing circle portion of the afternoon.

The schedule is as follows:

Date: Sunday, January 23, 2011
Time: 1pm - 5pm
Address: Please RSVP for address, as this is a private residence.
Energy Exchange: $15 (to cover our costs of supplying snacks & herbal tea)

Here are some more details about these circles:

Healing Circle

As practitioners, we often forget that we need to receive healing as well. Our healing circles offer you the opportunity to share your healing gifts with others, as well as receive a healing with other experienced healers. Our circles are open to practitioners of any healing modality and experience level.

Talking Circle

A talking circle is a traditional Native healing tool using a talking stick. We begin by "smudging in", where we pass around a mixture of sage, sweetgrass, cedar and lavender which cleanses any unwanted energies. We then pass around a Talking Stick; giving everyone in the circle the opportunity to speak whatever is in their heart or mind. Whoever is holding the talking stick has the floor and all others in the circle listen from their heart space and does not interrupt the speaker. Each circle we will have a moderator to ensure that the circle keeps moving and will select a topic for each round.

A Big Bang for Your Bucks!

2010-12-28T13:51:00.001-08:00

We're now offering a "deal of the day" on our brand new Groupon.com store. Here's our newest deal:

C$50 for C$100 Worth of Healing services at Thunderbird Sky Reiki & Energetic Arts... http://t.co/t8jLke5

Check out this website

2010-09-11T15:35:00.001-07:00

FOUR YEARS. GO. is a campaign to shift the current trends of humanity by 2014 so that we will be headed on a path toward an environmentally sustainable, socially just, and spiritually fulfilling future on this planet.

http://www.fouryearsgo.org/

Motivational Quotes & Quotations

2010-06-16T12:09:00.000-07:00

The Hopi Prophecy - No more distractions...

2010-06-07T21:07:00.000-07:00

All You Need is Love, Part 2...

2010-06-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

Phew! What a rollercoaster yesterday was. I was soooo exhausted, headachy, and feeling like I was going to puke all day. (sorry for the graphic description, but it's how I felt...) I felt like I had been hit by a metaphysical tractor trailer. I had the worst sleep last night - restless, tossing and turning, weird dreams, etc. And I woke up feeling more tired than when I went to bed, and still feeling nauseous. I didn't think I was going to be able to go to work today.

Danard said he pretty felt the same way this morning too. I think we're both dealing with some stuff...

Anyway. As usual, as I was driving my school bus run I had another 'download' from my Angels. I was not so gently reminded that the more I avoid my life purpose, or even procrastinate working on my plan to writing and producing spiritually uplifting and transformational films, the more crappy I'm going to continue to feel.

Huh...really, I said in response. I spent the rest of my run, thinking about that. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense. As I was writing out my morning blog for today, as I was relaying my ponderings from this morning, I had the following conversation with my Angels: (the text in quotations and italics is what my Angles had to say. Anything not in quotes is me talking to them)

So...the only way that I'm going to be able to turn around my low energy and feeling like shit everyday, is to do MORE stuff...ie, spend everyday working on my script, even though I don't have the energy to get it done. "Yes", was the quiet response from my council (of Angels).

So...to break this pattern, the only thing I can do is just...well...do it, despite that I'm exhausted all the time. "Yup". And that will give me energy? "Of course it will".

Archangel Chamuel
http://www.gallerydaniellemarie.com/

And then I will be able to do more. "Uh-huh". (as you might have guess, my angels don't speak in any kind of formal vernacular that one might expect, lol).

So...on top of everything else I need to get done, I need to make sure I work on the film everyday. "You already know the answer to that. We remind you everyday".

Yes, I know. And I feel guilty when I procrastinate too...I feel crappy when I put it off.

"Exactly our point! You feel worse when you don't work on the film, right"

Ya...

"Of all the things you 'need' to get done, this is the most important one."

Okay then. So when the house is a mess and I can't think straight...

"Then you clean the house. But...when you're done with the physical / mental survival stuff, then get back to the film. This is your life purpose. We know you've been trying to avoid the idea that this is what you're meant to do, in combination with your healing work and the music, of course (the healing is the foundation of the films). When you avoid and even resist what you came here to do, you go against your true nature, and this is exhausting to you. Not only at a physical level, but at the very essence of who you are. When you resist your true path that you chose for yourself, you go against everything that you are at the very core of your being. This takes a tremendous amount of energy to do. Why do things the hard way. Why not just give and and go with it. We know it's what you want to do. We know you've had dreams of pursuing a career in film and music since you were a very young child. Do not let fear get in the way of that. You're done you're "training" as it were. You have ALL of the information you need to get the job done now. You require no more training. It's time for you go the the proverbial show on the road. We're waiting for you....the world is waiting for you.

"We're going to remind you of something you told Danard years ago and that you've spoken to some of your clients: Who are you to deny the world of your gift. A gift that has the potential to change the world? Yes...YOU! You have the power to do this. There are people out there who need what you have to give, and they are waiting for you to show up. Don't deny them of that. And don't, for anything, deny yourself of the joy that you can experience by living your purpose fully and completely. That is what you are all here to do. And by living your own joy and purpose, you give all others the permission and inspiration to do the same. This is what changes the world. It is the Divine Love from Heaven that inspires all of this. So everything that came up in yesterday's post, is the foundation for what we speak of today. So go...just do it! Get the job done, and your energy and joy will return. Quicker than you can blink an eye.

"Let us ask you. How do you feel in transmitting this message right now. In writing this post; a message from your Angels, to you?"

It feels great!

"Do you have more energy now".

Yes, as a matter of fact, I do.

"Do you think you could spend some time now, working on your film?"

I think so...but maybe I'll explain to those who might be reading this, as to what my understanding is. The more I avoid my purpose, and put off working on my films, the more out of balance, tired, sick, depressed, etc, that I become. My very immune system is affected, not to mention how I feel emotionally and spiritually. When I focus on what I came here to do, even if it's just spending some time with myself and writing for my blog (which gets the energy and creativity moving again), I feel a whole lot better, bit by bit. And that the more time I spend writing and actually doing something to bring all of this stuff into being, the better and better I feel. Which, I'm sure at some point, will also affect my financial situation, which right now, isn't great.

"Do you get it now?"

Yes...I think I do...

"Need we say anymore?"

No, I think I've got it...

"Okay then. So...here's your homework. Everyday you will spend at least a half hour on Starcross'd. Don't try to push yourself into spending hours and hours yet, unless you really want to. Just some time everyday will do. The key is consistency, not how much time you spend. We can't emphasize that enough. And if there's a time when you feel you don't have it in you to get to work on writing the screenplay, just come here and write what's on your mind. It will get the juices flowing, and can be a part of the bigger picture, so to speak. You're readers - the ones who might even eventually be the ones who will come to see your film when it's showing in theatres - can be inspired to live their purpose by watching you realize yours. Get it?"

Okay...got it! I think I can do that.

"Good..."

I think that might be a good place to end this post. "Yes, it might be..."

Thanks guys, for the reminder... "You're very welcome."

I'd like to add something that popped into my head as the Angels were relaying the previous message. I'd like to make sure that you all know the every single one of you out there, has a life purpose that would not only bring you a tremendous amount of joy for yourself, but also for those around you. One that would ultimately help to change the world on the larger scale. Even if you don't know what that purpose is. It took me...20 years to put it all together. Maybe you just don't have all of the information yet.

In my next post, if there's interest, I can tell you about all of the stuff that I went though to find out what my life purpose was. Simply put, it took 3 college dimplomas, moving from Edmonton to Toronto and back again a couple of times. It took a HUGE amount of paying attention to the fut feelings and premontions, sent to me by my Angels and actually following that all the time. It took all of that, and so much more to get me to where I have all of the pieces so that I know what I'm supposed to do. And it didn't happen overnight either...as I said, it took me 20 years. It doesn't have to take that long for you, unless you want it it.

My point is, you do have a great and magical life purpose. One that is your soul purpose to carry out in this lifetime. It's your job to ask to be shown, and then just wait for the synchronicities to drop into your lap...and they will. Then it's up to you to do something about it.

And please remember one VERY important thing: Just because it's your life purpose, does not mean that it's always going to be easy and it certainly does not mean that it'll just be handed to you on a silver platter. There WILL be challenges. There will be obstacles. There will be times when you feel like you can't do it, or don't want to. There will be times when you are scared to death of what's going to happen if you try. It's your soul job to keep going despite all of that. Those are meant to teach you new skills and new tools so that when you are ready to fly, your wings will be fully formed and strong enough to carry you.

Take it from me. I've spent 20 years trying to "figure it out" when it was right in front of me the whole time. I was just too afraid to step out and put myself out there. But I know that if I don't do this, when I eventually come to the end of my physical life here, I'll die with a really HUGE regret on my consciousness. I don't want to do that.

How about you?

Archangel Raphael
http://www.gallerydaniellemarie.com/

Love, Light and Blessings,

Candice

All You Need is Love, Baby!!

2010-06-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here at the computer at a bit of a loss for words. Not because I don't have anything to say, but more because it seems like so much has gone on lately that I don't know where to start. Most of the "stuff" I refer to isn't even stuff anyone but me would notice, except for maybe my boyfriend / life / business partner who I share pretty much everything with.

I don't know if anyone out there has been feeling some internal shifting going on, but I sure have. All really subtle, but really major stuff. I've also been feeling like a lot of major external changes are going on in the world, even if that hasn't overtly affected my personal life...yet!

It seems like everyday I'm having to do major energy clearing on myself, my home, and pretty much everywhere I go. Today, for the second day in a row, I woke up at around 4am (which for me is...well...pretty much a miracle, given that I'm so NOT a morning person) and couldn't get back to sleep for the life of me. Every time I was about to fall back to sleep, Danard would shift, grunt, or otherwise inadvertently wake me up again. I got the distinct feeling that something was trying to keep me awake. I actually got a very specific 'download' that I was to get up and work on my screenplay (Starcross'd), but I very politely told my Angels that I wasn't going to be getting out of bed at 4 am except to go to the bathroom. It was just waaaaaayyy to early to even be awake, much less doing anything that required my mind to function on any kind of intelligent level.

As I was driving my school bus run this morning, and observing the incredible amount of fog, I got this feeling (not counting the soar throat I woke up with) that this was no usual fog. It felt "toxic" somehow. Not just energetically, but physically toxic. Like it had been injected with who knows what chemicals that have laced into the air. I asked my Angels for some major clearing on whatever the cause of the fog was, which immediately happened. As soon as I could see the sky, I saw so many chemtrails in the blue sky it wasn't even funny. All over the place. Hmmm...I wonder whey "they're" up to these days.

All of this explains the fact that I've felt like crap for several days - inexplicably so. I've been constantly doing energy work to keep myself from becoming suicidal or something...no worries guys, I'm keeping on top of that one! All of this just make me more determined to do the job I came here to do.

Through all of this, the only true, clear message I kept getting from my legion of Angels and Archangels that are always close to my hip is Divine Infinite Love is the only answer to anything. Which I have spending a great deal of my time focusing on and sending out to the world. Yes, I do notice that it makes a difference...at least in my own life. How 'bout you?

So...My challenge to everyone out there is. When faced with dealing with yours, or anyone else's "stuff"...the only thing that heals and transforms is: DIVINE INFINITE LOVE!!! That's it, that's all... Just send whatever you can muster to wherever it is needed - if you can't muster sending any, then ask your Angels for assistance, or you can even ask them to do it for you...they don't care, as long as it gets done.

By the way, the healing of ourselves and this planet takes us asking the divine for help. They can't directly intervene until we ask. Why you ask? Because we live in a free will zone. They can nudge and whisper in our ear, but they can't make us do anything unless we either ask for help, or we are in a life / death situation where we will die before our time (or become seriously injured and it's not a part of our life plan).

Anyway. About this love stuff...Have that Divine Infinite Love sent to anyone and everyone: those in need financially, health-wise, or otherwise (this especially includes those who piss you off, piss the world off or otherwise, do anything to harm or control another because they are the ones who need it the most - ask any the Dalai Lama or any Tibetan about that one!). Whether it be family, friends, world leaders, the media, other countries in need due to poverty, control or war), the earth, the environment, your neighbors, etc, etc, etc...

The bottom line is that we ALL could use a little more love in our lives.When you sent that love the planet, you also get a dose for yourself. Remember that. That which you give, you also receive!

Now go on...get to it...don't just sit there staring blankly at the screen. Go send some of that good stuff to everyone on the planet and I'll check back with you later to see how it's going...

Love, Light and Giggles!
Candice

EFT Tapping Create Abundance & Re-code Your Mind!

2010-06-01T08:42:00.000-07:00

Movin' and Shakin'

2010-03-09T09:47:00.000-08:00

Wow...lots has happened since the last post. I'm incredibly surprised and a little bit in awe of how quickly the business has taken a major turn for the better!

Before the end of January, after 3 weeks off from school bus driving for Christmas break, I was in a financial state where I wasn't able to pay my bills and my "other half" was taking care of them for me so I didn't end up in big trouble. Then it all turned around. At the end of January, I taught my first Reiki level 1 in a year and a half (because of the economy, no one was signing up for quite a while).

Since then, the doors have blown wide open! Big time...

I taught 3 classes in February - 1 AngelSong Intensive out by Saskatoon, and a level 2 and Advanced Reiki course. I also had new and previous clients coming out of the woodwork to book sessions. I'm totally blown away at the turnaround. If this keeps going for a while, I'm hoping that I won't have to go back to the day job next fall.

Now...I just need to do some healing work around sustaining this level of success. I can already feel myself going into the "how long is this going to last" mindset, which I know will stop the flow of abundance dead in its tracks. I think that will be a major focus in my next phone coaching call with Bonnie Bogner.

Hmmm...interesting. As I was looking for an image to include with this post, and found a nice one of a doorway leading up some stairs, I got this intuitive "download" regarding this recent stretch of sucess. That this has been a bit of a "taster" of what's to come. And if I choose, I can just walk through the door, close it behind me (ie. no going back to living a life of "lack"), and continue onward and upwards on my journey.

Cool...I think I'll do just that! The door is open and waiting for me...let's see where this leads...

That's all for now.

Love & Blessings,

Candice

Sigh...

2009-12-13T13:04:00.000-08:00

Been lots of shifting of consciousness and changes going on these days. Most of which have been internal. Not much been happening on the external level, except if you count the money situation being worse than it's ever been. I'm trying to not focus on that, because of course, what you focus on is what you get more of, but it's really difficult when you don't know if you'll be able to pay your rent or buy groceries next month or not.

I've been racking my brain, learning how to use social media as a marketing tool, and though a greater awareness has been created, this has not translated into anyone rushing to my door for sessions or classes. I've done more clearing and energy work on the blocks that are getting in the way of success (particularly financially) with this business, but nothing seems to make it any better. In fact, it seems that things are getting worse.

I'm starting to wonder if I should just give up...quit..throw in the towel, and just be happy with having a job, even if I don't like it that much and I'm not even making ends meet. I just don't know...

Kind of a depressing post, but not sure what else to say, and I think I'm needing to vent. All I do know is that I'm really tired of being beyond broke.

Well...on a positive note, my health has been hugely better since I started using the Conscious Planet products and some other stuff that, once there's a rep up here for, I'm going to hopefully start distributing. I don't think my energy levels have ever been higher...even when I was a teenager. So that's a really good thing.

Been getting on the raw foods bandwagon too. Just starting into that, but it seems like since I've been doing a bit of that, my energy levels are way higher too. I've sure noticed big changes.

Anyway...need to go finish cleaning the house and do some laundry. More later...

Love and Giggles,
Candice

Conscious Planet - Take a Quantum Leap with your health

2009-11-20T15:46:00.001-08:00

“The cell is immortal. It is merely the fluid in which it floats which degenerates.Renew this fluid at intervals, give the cells what they require for nutrition and as far as we know it, the pulsation of life may go on forever." - Dr Alexis Carrel, 1873-1944, Nobel Prize in Medicine

Here's some info about a great company who sells some amazing products. These products are not only high quality and will help you to make a quantum shift in your health, but they are of a very high vibration and consciousness.

What Makes Conscious Planet Products and the Quest Optimal Health Program Superior?
Our food philosophy and intent

don’t mess with the perfection of mother nature.
trust the bodies innate intelligence to take care of itself.
more is not necessarily better.
remove the vibrational cause of the problem instead of treating the physical symptoms.
food is only as good as the nutrients found in the soil in which it is grown.
sustainability is leaving a zero footprint and the world better than you found it.

Ingredients

We use the highest quality organic whole super foods possible that are concentrated in essential nutrients the body does not make and must get from food consumed in its whole natural form. Wild crafted and authentic picked foods have at least 2x the bio-photon or “Life Force” energy of Organic Foods. Organic food has 5x the energy of conventional or chemically treated foods. Cooked foods have 0% bio-photon energy.

Proprietary Processing

We choose superior drying and processing methods that cause as little harm to our organic herbs, vegetables, fruits and seeds as possible thereby conveniently concentrating nutrient levels to overcome soil depletion. Then we use techniques to energetically enhance the food thereby optimizing bio-availability and utilization of the nutrients so that the body is getting what it requires in the right amounts.

Four Pillars Determining Factors

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The Social Media Marketing Craze

2009-11-10T18:22:00.001-08:00

I am now endevoring to learn a whole new discipline...how to use social media to market Thunderbird Sky. I've now broke down and signed up with Twitter, which is now linked up to my facebook account and group. My TBS blog page (and soond to be this one) is hooked up with facebook at twitter. Now...to figure out how this all will help us build our business into an empire.

Been a while...

2009-10-26T10:33:00.001-07:00

Wow. I was just spending some time doing some work and adding a new article to our Thunderbird Sky blog, and realized that it's been over a year since I've posted over here in my personal blog. Sheesh. I think it's time to start posting again.

Lots has happened in the past year. One of the last posts I made was the fact that I was working on the business full time, which unfortunately, came to an end last fall. I've got back to school bus driving as a part time job to pay the bills. Not a bad option, but the early (5:30am) mornings are pretty challenging for me. I've never been a morning person, so having to get up that early is really difficult. The upside is that I can work on the business during the day and in the evenings. I've also taken on working in the charter department to fill in the gaps when the school I drive for has days off and holidays, which are many. It's not a bad job, and the kids that I'm driving around are really good kids (most of the time) and it pays decently for the amount of hours that I'm actually working. But I really did love working on the business full time and would like to get back to that soon. I'm in the process of doing some research on how to use social media to help market the business, so once I've got that stuff figured out and start implementing those tools, hopefully the success of the business will start to improve.

I think I need a better plan to move this business forward more quickly though. I've been feeling like I've just been meandering around with no direction and no idea of how to achieve my goals, which I know is probably 90% of the reason why we haven't been able to make this a full time gig. I need to get way more focused, but not sure where to start. Seems to be the same old story that I've been telling for the the last 5 years. Something needs to shift big time. So...I'm thinking that maybe posting some of my specific marketing goals that should help pick business up, should help me to get more focused. And then touching base with myself to make sure I'm doing what I said I would might be a great place to start. I have learnt a few small things about internet marketing, so at least I can start with that. So here goes:

My Marketing Targets for October 26, 2009:

1) Write one new article every month and get them out to the various article marketing websites. This one shouldn't be too difficult given that I write something new for every newsletter I send out.

2) Do the same as #1, but do a new channeled message every month.

3) Add a new post to this blog and to the Thunderbird Sky blog once per week (every week!) and stay on top of that regularly.

4) Figure out how to use Twitter and research how it can help my marketing. Then start using it.

5) Start making video tutorials for You Tube and posting them.

6) Create free report that would be of value to people, that they will get when they subscribe to our newsletter.

That's all I can think of for now. If anyone out there has any suggestions, please let me know. Okee Dokey. I need to go get some (ugh) housework done today cuz this place is a mess at the moment. Time to do some major decluttering. Maybe I'll do more regular posts here to log my progress in this whole process...hmm...

That's all for now. More later...

Candice
www.thunderbirdsky.com

More race pics

2008-09-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

Since the compilation photo colors turn out all wonky - blogger seemed to do something weird because the original doesn't look like that (see previous post below), I'll post some others...

End of Summer...end of a great season of Mini Road Race

2008-09-30T20:17:00.000-07:00

Hard to believe another summer has come and gone, and as usual, way too fast. This year I've been experiencing going fast in a whole new way...by getting the old (for us, new/used) dirt bike with street tires, out on the go cart track at the soon to be no longer Race City Speedway just east of Calgary.

I've taken up a brand new hobby which is, unfortunately, another very expensive one. But dammit, it's worth it for the adrenaline rush!

There's nothing better than speeding around a track on a Honda XR 100 (after all the different AMRA club bikes I've tried out, the one Danard bought this summer is still my fave by far) as fast as you can, hopefully without falling down. I've managed to do it all summer without falling down...unless you count when we first bought our bike and we were testing how much idle the bike needed. At first, it was idling really rough, so we sped up the idle. Someone (not Danard) told me to rev the bike up a whole bunch and then let go of the clutch. BIG mistake...front tire wheely's, Candice falls off the back and lands painfully on the ground...while still in the pits. (the area not on the track where the racers get ready to head onto the track) Sorry...no photo of this one...

I do however, have photos of some of our practices and races throughout the summer. I've compiled a few of the best shots from the season to compare what I looked like at the beginning, to how I look now. Let's just say HUGE improvement!

We only have a few more practices and one more race :( before the season closes for another year. I plan to do some more improvements to my race form and see if I can get a little faster around the corners in the process, so I can kick some butt at the last race. I'll have more pics to post then...

In the meantime...if anyone feels inclined, you can come out to watch the last race on Sunday, October 12 at the Go Cart track just south of Race City.

That's all for now...
Candice

4 and a half months and counting...

2008-08-21T20:30:00.001-07:00

It's now officially about 4.5 months since I quit my day job and I have yet to feel the need to be looking for a new one. I'm now running my business full time now. Which includes not working at Metatron anymore. Long story on that one...long story and too much drama to bother getting into. Suffice it to say that the store shut down a month ago, but I left a month before that.

It was a very sad thing to be pulling out all of our belongings out of that store. Danard called me from the store when he was moving our stuff out (I wasn't allowed to be in the store to take my own personal belongings without the owner present). He made me cry. He said to me what I had been thinking but didn't want to voice out loud...how sad it was that we were taking apart the healing room that we created with such love. I was very sad and depressed about that. I still miss that healing room a lot, and it's been 2 months now.

It was such a great room, and all of our clients who came for sessions there loved it. Many didn't want to leave at the end of their sessions. I spent time in there just soaking up the peaceful energy of it. It was one of the few places that I felt I could go and be completely at peace...besides the mountains of course.

But...everything happens for a reason. Things were becoming rather "toxic" at the store (energetically speaking) and it was best that we left anyway. Soo....my feeling now is that we'll eventually have an opportunity to create another space that's similar, but even better. Eventually...we'll have our own store that we can run ourselves and do things they way we choose to and create a vibe that will attract an infintely abundant number of new clients, students and customers.

In the meantime, we still have Elements of Wellness to work out of where there are new owners who plan to make that place really fly.

And of course, we're doing lots of shows...we did the Calgary Folk Music Festival at the end of July, then 2 weeks later, the Calgary International Blues Festival, and this weekend, the Expo Latino. I love doing all these music shows. I spend a lot of the day (when I'm not busy doing readings and Reiki and stuff) dancing away to the music, outside our booth. This weekend will be no exception...I just LLOOOOOOVVEEE any kind of Latino music. And then 3 weeks from now, we'll be doing the Calgary Body, Soul and Spirit Expo...more on that later...

Okay...time to hit the sack. Hope to see all of you at the festival this weekend!

Love, Light and Giggles,
Candice

Visit Thunderbird Sky Reiki & Energetic Arts at the Expo Latino this weekend!

2008-08-21T20:29:00.001-07:00

We'll have a booth at this year's Expo Latino Festival to be held at Prince's Island Park in Calgary, Alberta.

Come join us and enjoy great Latino music, food, arts, crafts, and of course...US! Doing our usual stuff of Intuitive Readings, Reiki and Ortho-Bionomy. We'll also have some other practitioners doing some cool stuff. Cathy Braun will be joining is with her Fibonacci and Acutonics tuning forks that help you to be transported to a new level of consciousness. We'll also have Sharon Heschl joining us who is a Master Herbalist / Nutritional Councellor, as well as Reflexologist and Raindrop Therapy Practitioner.

Come and get relaxed and energized with us in the sunshine and fabulous music at Prince's Island Park. The weather is looking like it will be very (lots of sunshine and warm, but hot crazy hot) promising to be really great this weekend.

For more info about expo latino, visit http://www.hispanicarts.com/.

Show hours: Friday, 6pm to 11pm
Saturday 11am to 11pm
Sunday 11am to 11pm

Tickets are $12.
Available at the gate (west entrance to the park by Eau Claire Market)

See you there!
Candice

Ask, Trust and You Shall Receive!

2008-05-20T13:13:00.000-07:00

Embracing the Changes Within

I'm feeling rather inspired to write a bit about something that a lot of us are experiencing or contemplating these days. Over the past few months and especially this past weekend at the expo, I've observed that there a lot of people going through some major changes in their lives. Either they are contemplating how to make the changes they feel are long overdue, or just starting to make those changes.

The new energies that are coming in these days seem to be almost forcing us onto our true life paths, sometimes whether we like it or not. There seems to be an almost intense urgency for us to get in alignment and start doing what we came here to do. I'm getting big chills through my body even as I type.

Some of us are seriously considering or in the process of leaving our 3D jobs and some are feeling the energetic push to do so. Some of these changes are even being forced upon us by creating situations that make us so uncomfortable that we are almost being given no choice but to walk away.

This is not only what I've observed from the many readings and Reiki sessions I've done with people lately (especially this past weekend), but in my own life.

Some of you know that for the past two years I've been receiving clear messages about the idea of walking away from my own 3D job and walking into my 5D life purpose. I've fought this for two years now out of sheer terror of not having any income to cover my 3D needs. Then along came Metatron: A Matrix of Healing (thank you Elaine!!!), which allowed me to decrease the number of hours at my 3D job, which then allowed the "transition time" that I felt I needed to get my act together. This has given me the feeling of safely so I could move into the 5D career without fear or worry about where the money was going to come from.

This has drastically changed yet again. I can feel an almost electric energy vibrating around and within me that tells me that life will never be the same after this - as tears of joy start to well up, telling me that this is a very good change! I somehow suspect that some of you out in cyber-space may know this feeling of which I speak because you are experiencing it too!

Some of you already know that about two weeks ago, I quit my day job that I had been at for the past eight months, due to some stuff that I won't get into. Suffice it to say, I was "forced" to leave that situation, leaving myself open to bigger and better possibilities.

To top it all off, two days after I quit, a very good friend of ours shared a message from a close family member of hers who passed a way not too long ago. Danard and I were incredibly blessed to have met Patricia a few times, who was the most amazing and gifted light worker I think I've ever met.

Our friend Chris shared with me last week that she got a reading by a medium, and that Patricia had a message for me. She told Chris, through this medium, that I don't have to do any job that I don't want and choose to do. That was it...simple, but exactly what I needed to hear, as that was two days after I quit my job. Me being stubborn, I still wasn't ready take the leap of faith and walk away from 3D jobs permanently.

My original plan was to go back to driving school bus when the unexpected happened.

Danard offered to support me for a month so I can focus 100% on Thunderbird Sky so I don't have to go back to a day job. WOW! This really blew me away. Talk about a HUGE gift, and it gave me the push I needed...

As of yesterday morning (April 24), I had also planned to re-take my required re-training starting today, "just in case" I still needed to go back when the month was up. BUT. I found out yesterday that's not possible, due to being so close to the end of the school year. So much for the "just in case" back up plan. Go figure…

So...here I am, as I think many of you are as well, perched on the precipice and ready to take the big leap into the unknown. Much to my utter amazement, I'm not worried - not even in the least. Ok - maybe a tiny bit, but without the fear this time around. That change, in and of itself is a significant one. Something big must be in the works. Needless to say, I'm pretty pumped about this whole thing, and wanted to share it with you all.

A lot of you out there know one thing about me - that I've had a lot of difficulty in this whole idea of really trusting that the money will be there when I need it, and that I really don't need this 3D job thing. It's taken this experience to force me to trust. I'm also now being forced to walk the talk that I talk about during classes, readings and sessions.

The lesson in all of this - that when the divine timing is right, the situations and opportunities WILL and DO cross your way to get you on the path that you set in motion before you came here. If it hasn't already happened, it's guaranteed that it will soon. We all need to trust that the shift happens when we are ready - no sooner, no later. It may take us years to get to this point, but it does and is happening. And not just to a few of us, it's now happening to everyone. No one is immune to these new changes that are coming in.

As we come closer and closer to 2012, we are gradually or more often that not, not-so-gradually, being guided onto our true paths. Those who fight this process are in for a rough ride. But if we learn to breath deeply and accept these changes with grace, ease and beauty, something I'm finally learning, we will no longer need them to be difficult or painful. The changes can even be joyful and full of laughter and excitement. But this is a choice that each of us has to make. We can do this the easy or the hard way, but regardless of how we choose to shift with the shifting of the ages, it's happening. With or without us.

The biggest key in all of this is trust. Trust, trust, and then trust even more - as I look sheepishly at my keyboard, averting the many eyes of those who have told me time and again to just get out of my own damn way and stop living in fear of the what-ifs. Okay, okay, I get it. Which is why I can now confidently stand on my soap box and say to all of you - If I can do it, so can you!

Oh...and by the way, these changes aren't limited to just our job & careers. These changes are going to be and are affecting every area of our lives - career, relationships, health, prosperity, family, self-worth, life purpose, etc. Everything we have known up to this point in history is being re-wired and re-written. Our very DNA is changing in order to open us up to greater and higher vibrations of light than we've ever experienced before.

Life as we've known it to be up to this point, is a thing of the past as the veil between here and there is quickly disappearing. The sooner that we realize all of this, the sooner that we can get on with the show. And… the only way to ride through these changes… is to strap on our eight foot Angel wings and enjoy the view!

copyright candice creelman april 2008

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Yippee!!

2008-05-20T12:49:00.000-07:00

A few minutes ago, I was browsing through some archive disks of computer files looking for some files to recreate my level one Reiki manual that got eaten by a virus last year, and to my utter amazement, I also found my old blog posts that also got eaten, for a very different reason. (No thanks to Blogcharm that suddenly decided to call it quits with no forwarning to it's users, whatsoever) I don't think I backed up all of my blog posts, but I have a lot of them.

I was reading through a few of them, recalling where I was approximately 2 years ago when I was on stress leave from my job at Rogers Wireless. In those posts, I spoke a LOT of wanting to quit my day job so I could focus on what I really enjoyed doing; working on the business of healing, doing more art work, getting back to my music, etc. For so many years, I've been dreaming of the moment when I would no longer require to be employed at a job that I barely tolerated. And a little over a month ago, that day finally happened!

I'll be posting an article I wrote shortly, about that process, on this and the Thunderbird Sky blog, but for now, suffice it to say, YIPPEE!!!! Reading back over what I vividly remember to be one of the most difficult times of my life really make me appreciate being where I am now. I remember getting strong intuitive downloads that my next big leap of faith would be that I would be quitting the whole day job racket altogether. I knew then, when that moment happened, it wouldn't be an easy transition, though I did spend a lot of time asking for that. I knew that it would involve, "jumping into the abyss empty handed", as Danard would say. Up until a month ago, that though scared the hell outta me.

Strangely, and surprisingly, I'm not wigged out like I thought I would be. Sure I have my moments of worrying about the money aspect, but so far, even after a month, I'm doing okay financially. I still have to be really careful of my spending, so I can keep working full time on the business as long as possible (the goal is for that to be permanent), but I'm not scraping the bottom of my bank account. Thanks partially to a really nice income tax return, but mostly because Danard chose to (as he put it) step up to the plate to help me financially for a month to cover what I couldn't, for the first month. He never ceases to amaze and delight me! As I've said in other posts, he really is an angel!

I think gratitude will be the word of the day for a while...

Love, light and giggles,
Candice

Starting Over (sort of...)

2008-02-01T12:40:00.000-08:00

Well, after an extended perious away from our Blogger blog, we're back. I moved over to another site for a couple of years, as we were having trouble with Blogger, constantly being down. But now...much to my extreme dissapointment, our blogcharm account is no longer. The whole site is down in fact.

No warning, no notice...

I just happened to click on our bloglink from the Thunderbird Sky website to update that blog, and there was this unhappy notice that Blogcharm was being shut down. The real pisser was that the date they listed as being the shut down date hadn't come yet. So, I should have been able to go into my account, and save all of my journal entries, so I could transfer them back over to here.But no...that would have entailed far too much integrity and consideration for the loyal Blogcharm users.

Needless to say, I was extremely unhappy with this turn of events. There wasn't even any contact info where we could find out if we could retrieve our data so we could have it on file. The worst part of the whole scenario, was that they didn't even have any consideration to send out a general notice before the site went down, so that we could save our files. Just, "POOF", they're gone. ARGH!!!!!

So, to you the faithful blogger out in blogland. Should Blogcharm ever return onto the scene...I heed you this warning...DO NOT USE THEM!!!! That, and regularly back up your blog posts if you don't want to lose them.

Just another Buddhist lesson on impermanence, I guess.

Sigh...Oh well...what can a blogger do. This still doesn't tarnish my belief in "everything happens for a reason". So, I'll just leave it at that, and move on. No point in being angry about something ya can't change. (which I was for a while...but now that I've vented, I feel much better now, lol...!)

Onward and Upward, as they say...

More to come...
Love, Light and Giggles,

Candice

New Official Thunderbird Sky Website!

2007-02-05T11:13:00.000-08:00

We've finally done it! We have a new web presence where you can see what we're up to, see what we have to offer, read interesting articles, etc. Come check out the new website. You won't be disappointed.

www.thunderbirdsky.com

The Other Side?! has moved to a new location

2006-05-22T11:04:00.000-07:00

We have moved to a new home, but for reasons I choose not to get into, I would prefer people to email me for the address to our new home. Please title your email as "new blog website address". I've emailed everyone in my email list of this change, but it seems that no one has noticed that email coming through their boxes, as no one seems to be reading the blog at the new address.

I would prefer these email requests for the new location to be sent to my hotmail account at candice_c555@hotmail.com, so as to prevent possible spam from jamming up my regular email address.

There will be no further posts on this site. If you choose to continue reading our blog, we welcome you to join us at the new location. Both this blog, and "Thunderbird Sky Reiki and Readings" have moved.

Blessings,
Morgana

Day 49 -

2006-04-27T10:39:00.002-07:00

My 60 day experiment is proving to be a huge success so far!!!

...and I still have 11 days to go.

Lots to update seeing as it's be almost 2 weeks since I've posted. I've been feeling better in general, except for the past few days. Last week, I was sleeping well, finally. Not so much this week though. Just can't seem to feel rested. Danard and I were going to get acupuncture treatments a couple times a week, and that was helping a lot. We went once this week, but didn't seem to do much for the sleep this time. Not sure what that's about.

We did the Body, Soul and Spirit Expo this past weekend, which was one of the reasons why I didn't have time to post. There was just way too much to do to get ready for it. The show went well. Friday night and Saturday, there was lots of people attending, but no one seemed to want to spend money. We did get some clients on those days, but not like we were hoping for. We weren't the only booth that was experiencing that. Sunday was amazing though. I had one reading after another non-stop. My throat was hoarse by the time we were done, but it was a lot of fun. Danard was really busy with Reiki sessions too. It looks like we'll have lots of classes for the next little bit too. I have someone taking their Master level from me next week, which is awesome! This will be my second master student now.

We also had a referral Reiki client from the show. Someone at the show who really liked what she got, referred a friend of hers to us. Cool stuff! I hope that is a continuing trend.

I also got us signed up for the Lilac Festival for May 28. Can't wait for that. It's very affordable to have a booth there, and last year, 120,000 people went through the festival. And, there's only 2 other psychics signed up so far, and no other Reiki pracititioners at all. So, there won't be any competition. So we should fair pretty well at that show. We also have plans to do a bunch of other festivals this summer too. At some point, I think I might just take a leave of absence to do these shows, plus doing farmers markets and stuff. Could be an interesting summer.

In the not so great happenings, I have to go back to work as of next week. The good thing is that for the first 2 weeks, I only have to be there Mon, Wed, Fri for 4 hour shifts - 9am to 1pm. So, I've got the rest of the days to work on the biz. I really have to get some work done on that book, so I can start getting an income from that. I've also realized that I have other material for a book that I could get done in less than a week. My Reiki manuals. I'm just going to rearrange them a bit, maybe add some stuff and make that an ebook. So, I'm going to get that done by the weekend, and then find out how to get it out there.

I've officially decided that there's no way, no how that I'm going to go back to work on a full time basis. I just know that I can't do it. So, once the doc says that it's time to go back full time, I'll just tell work that I'm officially going part time. I'll do that until the summer starts getting really busy with the business, then take the rest of the summer off. Who knows, maybe I won't have to go back in the fall. We'll see. If we play our cards right, this next month or so, will be the last month or so of the day job scene. I've also decided that this is the last day job that I ever have. Once this one is done, I'm a full time Reiki Master / Teacher, psychic, author. No more day jobs for this kid. I'm done. It's time to just step up to the plate and live my life the way I choose it to be. Period. No more playing by someone else's rules that I don't agree with. I'm quite excited about that. My friend Wendy gave me a reading on Sunday morning that was really good. It confirmed that the "paying the dues" is finally done, and from this point on, I do what I choose. Basically it confirmed the decision that I've made internally.

Of course, being that I know how this stuff works, and I the fact that I know that once you make a choice to go whatever direction you're choosing to go, the Universe will rearrange itself to make that happen. I've done all the lesson learning. This job has been a biggy. It's probably been the thing that's has been the catalyst for me getting to this point. I needed to get to where I was so fed up with the day job thing, that I finally HAD to make a choice to say "no more!". So, I give thanks to this job for finally getting that through my thick skull. If I had stayed at my last job, where I was content...not blissfully happy, but not unhappy (except for the pay), I would have never got the fire to get out of the rat race BS. So, here we are. About to embark on a whole new way of living my life. Whoohoo! Even though I'm tired because of a yuky sleep last few nights, I'm excited about what's to come!

Stay Tuned...
Morgana

Day 36 - Some kind of weird "acid" trip...

2006-04-14T20:30:00.002-07:00

Well...it's official. I'm on anti depressants. Danard had a dentist appointment up in the same mall where there's a walk in clinic that I'd been to before, that I liked. So, upon arriving at the dentist office, Danard heading in for his appointment, and I troddled off to the clinic. I just love the comfy chairs they have in the waiting room. I was almost disappointed when I got called into one of the exam rooms. I really want a chair like that for my computer. I think that I'd never leave that chair if I had one of my own.

Anway...I digress...

I went into the exam room and only waited a few minutes (this is one of the things I like about this walk in clinic), the doc asks me what the problem is. Of course, being that I've already been diagnosed with depression, I just came out with it. I said this exactly, "In a word...depression". You should have seen the look on the doc's face when I said that. It was priceless. I'm sure he was thinking, "who on earth does this person think she is, walking in her, with a 'self diagnosis". Of course, what he didn't know, was that not only had I already been diagnoseda few days prior and was off work because of it (which I expertly explained to him), but I'd been diagnosed years ago, and had been on meds at that time, for the same damn thing...I explained that also. The first thing he said, of course, was that when you are put on anti depressants, you should be staying on them. I then explained that I only like to be on meds if there's no other option. He of course, asked if I've had any "suicidal tendancies". I was truthful by saying...not lately, but I have been there before. Well, not completely truthful. What I didn't add to my statements was that I just wouldn't actually DO anything about those types of thought, which I have had lately, fortunately, not within the past few days...

So, we then discussed what meds he would put me on. He suggested prozac. I said "no" tried that once, made me sick. He suggested Zoloft, I said again "no" that one upchucked within 20 mintues the first time I tried it. Then he said Paxil. That one wasn't out of the question, tho I'm still not sure if it was Paxil that I upchucked and Zoloft that was okay, or the other way around. I just stay away from both, just in case. He put me on Celexa, which was what the first doc suggested. This 2nd doc was really puzzled as to why the first doc couldn't actually do the prescribing. I couldn't really give him a reason, only to the effect that she was only supposed to say "yea" or "nea" to me going back to work or not. He also gave me an anti depressant to take at night to help me sleep, which did no such thing, last night...ugh!!!

Day 1 on Celexa was interesting. I was nauscious all day and dizzy, and I felt a wee bit "zombie like". The zombie feeling was probably only because I'm used to the emotional rollercoaster, and that wasn't present. So to me, that's zombie-like. Once I got my tummy feeling okay (which took most of the day), it was time to take the other one...can't remember what it was called. Whooooeeeee! What a trip that was. I was so doped up that I could barely walk in a straight line. And it was the lowest dosage he could give me on that one. Eegads!

Have you ever got to a drunken state where, you weren't passed out in a coma from alcohol poisening, but you were so drunk that it fucked with your mind so that you couldn't sleep? That was me on this stupid medication. It was horrible! I had THE worst sleep ever, last night. I fell asleep for about 2 hours...maybe. Then I woke up. And for the rest of the night, I was in this drugged haze where I'd have a really messed up dream, wake up, toss and turn, then drift off, have another messed up dream (with the same "theme" as the previous), and on it went like that. Don't ask me what these dreams were about, but I know they were all about the same thing. I was so drugged up, that I don't even remember my dreams, which is highly unusual. I just know they were kinda like acid trips. Not that I would know what an acid trip was like, but it's what I would imagine them to be. Let's put it this way, I won't be taking that pill anymore. It was absolutely awful!!! If I ever HAVE to (and it would be last resort), I'd cut it in half, which would make it a 5 mg dosage. That would probably still be more than enough.

Today, the Celexa didn't mess my stomach so much, only a tiny bit, and I didn't feel zombie like. I felt more like myself today, just a very tired version of myself. I still haven't got used to the idea of being back on anti depressants, cuz I told myself that I would never go back on them, but, as everyone keeps telling me, it's not that bad to be on them, when you need to be. I just hate admitting that I can't do it on my own right now. It's more of an ego blow than anything. My goal is still to not to have to be on them for the rest of my life. That...I refuse to do. Given that I know that you can cure yourself of terminal illnesses if you choose to, I refuse to play victim to this depression thing. Not gonna happen. I'm willing to admit that I need "assistance" at this point in my life, right now. But I'll be damned if I'll stay on them permanently, as yesterday's doc was suggesting. No way, no how...

Anyhoo...that's my day today. Oh...and Danard and I had an acupucture and massage appointments today, which were fabulous. Every little bit helps. We were going to go to a sweat lodge tonight, but it would have been a bit too much to handle. Don't wanna overdo it.

Okay...I'm done now. More later. Time for bed...

Morgana

Bugs and Dentists...

2006-04-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

I decided to do some writing right at this moment, because it's too early to go to bed, and Danard is watching a DVD about bugs. Eek! We started watching it last night, and I ended up running away from the living room squeeling like a girl. There's nothing like losing the cool exterior like queeling at the sight of a big, black, ugly, abnormally LARGE moth (or some othercreepy crawly-like creature) on your TV screen. Not exactly what I had in mind the evening's enertainment!!!

So I'm here, in the other room, trying NOT to listen in, because then I just get visuals in my head that are potentially far worse that what's actually on the screen at the moment. So what do bugs and dentists have to do with each other (as per tonights title) you ask??? Absolutely squat.

I just had a dentist appointment today and finally got the freezing out of my mouth about an hour ago. I HATE the dentist, as most people do. Not that I have anything against the particular human who is doing my dental work, my current dentist is actually quite fabulous. I just hate the whole concept and procedure. Especially today's ordeal. I'm having the remaining 4 mercury fillings replaced by the white fillings, plus I have a cracked tooth (over top of which was one of the fillings to be remodeled) that as of now, has a temporary crown, which will be replaced by a porcelain one in 2 weeks.

The crown, wasn't so bad. One of the replacement fillings...wasn't so bad. It was the very large filling that had been there since I was a kid, THAT was the bad one. Apparently the filling had degraded or something, and underneath was a lot of decay...nearly to the root. Basically, I very narrowly escaped a root canal. Needless to say, despite the 2 needles in my jaw, which currenly hurt like a sonuvabitch, I still felt pain. Danard was an angel though. He sat with my in my appointment, forced to listen to the drilling (I think that's the worst part of the whole thing), and Reiki'd me the whole time. (2 and a half hours) He has to be the most patient, kind being in the universe, to be willing...he was the one who offered his services, because he knew I was very nervous....to sit with me through all of that. This is one of the many things that I love so much about him. I think I would have not made it through that appointment, had it not been for him. So, thank you to Danard! You are my angel!!!

My whole body, especially my neck, is seized up because I was in a complete state of anxiety the whole time. I'm thinking a hot bath would be in order right about now. Anyhoo. It's all done and I'm very very glad for that.

Okay...last night, I thought it would be a cool idea to recap my 30 day experiment. To those who may not know what I'm talking about. 34 days ago, I went to a workshop on something called creating your own Mastermind Group. A group where you brainstorm each others ideas for whatever it is your trying to create, or solve. And you all come up with ideas for that...whatever it is. I had an inspiration to have a "30 Change My Reality" experiment, to see where it would take me, and what would change in that 30 days. So...here were are at day 34. Let's see what's changed...

I started off with a really huge focus of how to get out of the day job because it was making me completely miserable, and causing a lot of tension and stress on the home front as well. Not to mention the depression and anxiety as well. What I've created since day 1 is the following:

1) I'm now on Chapter 3 of my first book, that I'll be publishing as an e-book. Authoring was something I never had interest in doing before this. The whole thing came from the suggestion from a friend of ours who told about this e-book thing and that you can create a passive income from it. COOL!!!

2) I've got 2 new paintings nearly completed.

3) I've got ideas for several books and what will become workshops that I'll be teaching.

4) I've been off work for 2 weeks now, at full time pay, on stress leave. I will be off for sure, for another 2 weeks, possibly longer.

5) I'm seeing a councellor to help deal with my stress, depression and anxiety. It is helping.

6) I have some other business / promotion thing in the works for this summer, with the help of some brainstorming from a couple other friends.

7) We have help from yet other friends, with building a website. (thank you again, Tim, Heather and Leigh) Done on a trade, which is very cool.

8) Leigh will be helping with marketing as she is very, very good at it. This will also be done on a trade basis, which is fabulous as we don't actually have cash to pay for marketing.

9) Danard and I will be taking a marketing workshop at the end of May that is a "pay what you can" deal. We did the intro tonight, and it looks like it will be really an amazing weekend.

So, lots has shifted since the beginning of this experiment. As a result, I have decided to continue this on to a 60 day thing, if anything, just to see what happens. It seems, lots has happened in the first 30, it can only get better from here.

Now...to tackle the not sleeping issue. Once I can get a decent night sleep where I don't feel like I'd been run over by a city bus when I wake up, I might be able to speed this process up. In the meantime, let's just see where this all goes, shall weeeee???

Okee, NOW it's time for bed. G'night all!

Morgana

Got my time off...

2006-04-11T20:31:00.001-07:00

So, I had my doctor appointment today to get evaluated as to whether I'm good enough shape to go back to work. Of course, it had to be on a day that I actually got an "okay" sleep...not great, but at least okay. It was the first time in months that I'd had even an okay sleep, so I felt...okay. Better than I had in a while. So I was actually nervous once I finally got to the office and was waiting in the room for the doc. It went good though. She did recognize that I'm basically a mess, and need to be off the for at least the full 30 days. So, I won't have to go back to work until the 29th at the soonest. A few days before that, she wants me to come back and get re-evaluated and see where I'm at from there. I'll either get more time off, or go back on a modified schedule. ie, part time hours at full time pay. If I end up doing that, we'll play it by ear and see how I handle it.

She also suggested anti depressants. Since I've had problems with depression and anxiety since I hit puberty, she figures that councelling ain't enough. That it's an ongoing problem. As much as I don't want to be on medication, she's probably right. So, I'll try that until I can get it together and get stablized, and see if I can go off them at that point. She also suggested looking for another job too. Which I've considered, but haven't had the energy to start looking. Eventually I will. But when you don't have enough energy to get out of bed, it's pretty daunting to think of looking for work. My goal is still to finish writing my book, get it out there, and see if I can create enough of that passive income to live on and go from there.

At least for now. I have time to what I want, and to get my head together, and still have a paycheque so I can survive.

This is all good! I couldn't believe the sense of relief when I knew that I wouldn't have to walk back into that office for at least 2 weeks. A huge weight has bee lifted from my shoulders.

Okay...that's all for now. Danard has already started watching the movie he rented. Gonna go join him...

It also occured to me that I'm past my "30 day" goal of changing my life, so I thought it would be appropriate to do a recap, but I think I'll do that later tonight, or tomorrow.

Stay tuned,
Morgana

Day 33 - Waffles...

2006-04-11T20:14:00.001-07:00

I've discovered that I suck at making waffles. Danard's mom gave us this old waffle maker thingy a couple months ago, which I hadn't got around to trying out. This morning I decided I wanted waffles for breakfast. I've never made waffles before. My mom used to make them when I was a kid. I'd watch her do it, so I didn't figure it would be that difficult. So I got out the waffle batter package, heated up the waffle maker, and went to it. It wasn't the batter that was the issue, it was the waffle making part that I had trouble with.

I put the mixed batter on the waffle maker, spread it around evenly, and then closed the lid. Okay...easy, right? Not so much. At least not for me. I didn't know how long I should wait before lifting the lid. This was my fatal mistake. I lifted the lid way too soon. When I did, not only was the waffle not cooked, but it came apart it a very uneven fashion. Some was stuck to the top, and some to the bottom. Which made what was supposed to have been a mouthwatering, golden brown masterpiece of a breakfast, ended being....well.... What it really looked like was a mixed up, mulched up pile of goo - half cooked, and half not cooked.

So, in my brilliance, I close the lid hoping that it might magically "heal" if it cooked longer. This was not going to happen. Danard saw what I had created and laughed his ass off at my expense. What was he to expect? I've never made the damn things before! He then told me that I had to wait until there was steam coming out of it, and I could see that the waffle inside was starting to turn brown. Which I did. And sure enough...the same mess showed itself when I finally opened up the lid again. It was a complete and utter disaster!

I managed to scrape the bits and pieces off the top and bottom of the waffle iron and proceeded to add butter and syrup. Dammit, if I'm going to go to that effort to make waffles, I'm going to bloody well eat them, no matter what they look like. They were cooked. They still tasted okay, but just wasn't easy to eat in pieces like that. Oh well...ya win some ya lose some.

I made another batch. This time I waited for the appropriate length of time, with the only mistake being that I put too much batter in the maker. Haven't had that one yet...I was too full after the first one to have more, so I'm not sure if it's cooked all the way through or not. I'll find out tomorrow...

Morgana

PS. The waffles I made, in no way, resembled the one in the picture at the top...

Day 32 - I think I overdid it yesterday

2006-04-10T17:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so exhausted today. I think I spent way too much time writing yesterday. I have been completely useless today. I spent half the day in bed today. My head hurts, my neck hurts, everything seems to hurt. I think I'll be pacing myself better when writing for the time being. My energy levels are way too low to handle that many hours in front of the computer anymore. I haven't even got dressed today, ugh. I guess I'm going to have to soon. Danard and I are going to see Celestine Prophecy tonight.

Short post today. Gotta go get dressed...

Morgana

Day 31 - Feeling Inspired

2006-04-10T17:06:00.001-07:00

So, Leigh and I went to this short workshop on self publishing. It was quite interesting. I'm not sure if she learned anything new, being that she's been doing this author thing for a lot longer than I have, but I was very inspired by the whole thing. Part of it was a sales pitch for the authors new book about how to publish your own book, which I ended up buying. I got some ideas on how to market the book when it's done. Got inspired to keep writing. It was all pretty cool.

Other than that, I spent most of the day writing. I now have almost 3 chapters finished. I was still writing when Danard got home from his air brakes course, and then we headed out to have dinner with his dad, step mom and brother.

That's about all for now...
Morgana

Day 29 - A bit of sunshine?

2006-04-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

I have to say that one good thing about work, is that when you are having a crisis, they're really on the ball to help in whatever way they can. The lady in HR that I've been dealing with in regards to my application for time off has absolutely been wonderful! I just called her today about the form that I have to have filled out to get my time off needed. I of course, told her about my meltdown last night and stuff. My question for her was, would I need a medical doctor to fill out this form. She said that it's preferred. Of course, I don't have a regular doctor, which Leigh said she'd talk to her doctor and see if she can get a referral for me, as I'd prefer to have a female doctor for all of my medical needs, including this one.

I told HR that I was working on getting a doctor who could fill this thing out, and she said that was cool, and if I had any trouble finding someone, not to worry about the April 13 deadline. Which was the first relief that I had. After I got off the phone with her, about 5 minutes later, she called me back. I guess corporate health has a group of doctors that they deal with for stuff like this. She booked an appointment for me, for Tuesday, with a female doctor to boot (yeah!) to talk about what's going on, and to fill out whatever paperwork needs to be filled out.

She also said that I might not need this specific form filled out that they sent me, they have their own forms, and the cost of those forms being filled out, is covered by work. Normally, this kind of form can be pretty expensive, so this is really cool that, not only do I have a doctor to go do about this, but I won't have to fork out any cash to have it filled out. Big time bonus!!

And...apparently, this doctor is really good. I asked if we can keep this referral for our regular medical needs, HR wasn't sure about that, but it won't hurt to ask while I'm there. If not, I'm sure I can get a referral from Leigh's doctor. So, for the first time in a while, I feel like things are looking up, a bit.

I asked HR what the protocol for long term leave would be as well, if I need it. There is a form, but shouldn't be a problem getting that filled out too, if my new doc thinks I need that much time off. I'm really relieved that I'm not going to be pressured to go back to work, if I'm not up to it. I have to say...the job might be extremely stressfull...enough to cause me to have to take time off, but when that happens, they are really great about taking care of their employees. I've never had a job before that even had this type of program before, so this is really cool.

So, despite the "dark night of the soul" that I'm going through, I can still see some sort of ray of light, peeking through the clouds out there, somewhere. I'm sure I'll come out of it, stronger than ever, and ready to handle anything. Not to mention, I'll be a much better practitioner when this is all dealt with. I'm thinking this is the Universes way of forcing me to deal with some stuff that I never really dealt with. Like childhood issues, mom / control (ie. being controlled) issues, and mom passing away issues. I guess I have no choice now but to "get over it" so to speak, with the help of a pro. Which, I feel, will make me a better advisor for others going through the same kind of stuff. (I see a lecture tour in my future, lol...)

This might actually make a great book someday. Ugh. Here we go again...I guess I'm becoming an author despite never having the intention, nor desire to be one, before all of this. Weird how things happen...now look at me! It'll be interesting to see where this all goes.

Okay. That's all for now.
Morgana

Day 28 - Meltdown

2006-04-06T21:24:00.001-07:00

I'm having a conflict right now as to how much detail I want to blog here about what I'm feeling these days. Needless to say, from my title tonight, I had a bit of an "episode" earlier on. Danard happened to be looking over my shoulder, and told me that I shouldn't be writing so much detail about what's been happening (this is my 2nd draft of this post). His feeling is that he's worried that someone at work - or otherwise - might read what I'm posting, and "turn it against me" somehow, as he put it.

Personally, my own delimma would be how much crap does everyone out there reading, really want to know about my personal meltdowns. Maybe a public forum isn't the best place for that, but it does have a therapeutic value to it. So, I'm not sure what to do.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Especially those who I work with at said job, and know the politics that go on there. Let's take a poll, lol. Maybe no one wants to hear this stuff anyway. I wonder if everyone reading is just getting so sick of my bitching and complaining that I should just not talk about this stuff anymore, especially in a public forum. There's of course, always the business that I'm working on building. Does it look really bad for me as a practitioner - someone who's supposed to be able to help others through their own shit - to have potential clients, or students, or whatever - read that I'm not able to manage my own life at this particular moment?

I worry that by me writing this stuff "out there", that it will damage my ability to build this business, once I'm on the other side of this meltdown, and have gotten through it. Will this permanently ruin my reputation? ...if I even have one to begin with, that is.

Just a lot of questions that I have right now. Just curious as to what y'all think about this? Maybe I'm worrying over nothing.

Anyhoo...on a positive note...yes there is one in here somewhere. I got great news on what I'll be getting back on my tax return. I won't give the amount, but it was more than I was expecting. So, between that, my claim that I have to submit for the extended health care that I have from work for the massage, chiropractic and councelling sessions that I've paid for - I'll get reimbursed for all that as well. Plus, my paycheck, and the savings that I have (which isn't the $918 thats currently showing on the meter...more bills, ugh!), I'm in pretty good shape. If my calculations are correct, I'll actually have more than my goal savings on the meter. WooHoo!!! I'm pretty happy about that.

Anyhoo. That's all I have the energy to write at the moment. I'm going to go sit in the tub for a while. My brain hurts, amongst other things. Time for a time out.

More later...
Morgana

Day 25 - It's always darkest before the dawn

2006-04-03T14:15:00.000-07:00

Okay, so it's decided that I'm not that great at posting something everyday, but I'm doing better than what I normally do with journalling. I have no excuse for not writing over the weekend, except that I just didn't feel like it. So, I'll do one of those recaps....

After I wrote in my journal on Friday, I got a delivery at the door - the Soul Cards that I ordered from Amazon. They're pretty cool. The really cool thing, is that this is a deck, that if you use them for readings, they don't give you the meanings for the cards in the book. The book only teaches you how to interpret them, which could be different for every reading. The artwork is designed to trigger stuff in your subconscious - kinda like the inkblots that shrinks use to analyse what's going on inside a patient's head. And of course, the artwork is amazing on this cards. I haven't used them yet, for inspiration for my own art work yet, but that will be coming soon.

Day 23 - Saturday

I had one of those weekends in general where I honestly don't even remember what I was doing. Sunday I remember, but Saturday is a blank. I know I did...stuff, but to remember what, might take a bit of effort to recall. Even as I sit trying to get some image of what I did all day, it's a complete and total blank.

Day 24 - Sunday

Yesterday felt a lot busier than it actually was. I spent the morning doing absolutely nothing. I was barely able to lift myself off of the couch, much less anything else. Whilst Danard decided to go to church. Yes, that ugly 6 letter word that I can't stand. He does this ever now and again, I think just to experience different points of view on spirituality. I went with him once to a church on Centre St., it was...interesting. Maybe I'll write about that adventure sometime, but for now, I'll just say that I admire his curiosity for other religions. I for one, fully admit that I have far too many of my own hang-ups about organized religions, to be that curious. Yesterday, he went to a Jehova Witness church. He asked if I wanted to do...I declined. He even took a Jehova bible with him that he picked up from who knows where. Eek, scary. I don't think he's turning religious on me though...at least I hope not, lol!

He decided to try to play a joke on me when he got home. Instead of letting himself in, he rang the doorbell, as if he was one of those door to do religion salesmen. I, of course, looked out the window before I went downstairs before answering, so I knew it was him. I just thought he left his keys at home. When I opened the door, he made some comment that was like the usual intro that the canvassers use. What a goofball he is...in a good way of course. He's good at doing silly things to try to make me laugh, and often succeeds at it too. Which is touch these days, but he's good at it.

After that, we got together with Leigh, Heather and Tim, to have our first Mastermind meeting (see one of my previous posts about that topic). We did some brainstorming at this exotic hot dog cafe called Le Chien Chaud. I had a French hot dog: dijon, sauteed mushrooms, gruyer cheese. Really good..especially for a hot dog. Next time, I'm going to try the Chicago.

After that, it was our Reiki circle. We had dinner beforehand, and only 1 person showed up. I went into depression mode, thinking that it was because of me and my complaining about my job and just generally being depressed all the time, that we had only 1 guest. I'm still not convinced that I wasn't because of me that people seem to have stopped coming, but I'm just not going to think about it, or it'll make me more depressed.

I had a good session. I actually got my mind to shut up for a change. I pretty much was "out" for most of my session. I wanted to go straight to bed after that, but Danard wouldn't let me, as we still had one more session to do on the friend of ours who came out. I just sat on the rocker and participated in his session from a few feet away. I was "out" for most of that session too. As soon as we were done, I went to bed. I slept okay last night, but not great. I hope that I can eventually be rested when I sleep, so I can actually have energy during the day. I'm sure eventually I will. I do have hope about that...

Day 25 - Today

Not much to say about today, except that I've heard from work, about my application for time off. Good news is that they're covering me up until April 13 at the very least. They're mailing me a form I have to fill out with more questions they have for me. Then they'll decide on the rest of my time off, if I get it or not. I sure hope so...

I did manage to muster up some energy to do some work on my book. I have about 3 quarters of the first chapter done. I got that far, and pooped out. It only took me about 45 minutes to write that much, and then I was too tired to write more. My goal is to write a chapter a day. Which, being that it's only a workbook, should be a pretty realistic goal. I write fast...

Anyhoo...that's all for now. I know my writing lately, isn't exactly upbeat, like I prefer to do, but at least I'm writing, which I think does help. Even if few people read this blog, lol... I think this process is more for me anyway. Kinda like therapy..which I have another appointment booked for on Friday. I like my councellor. She's really good, and understands all of this energy stuff that I talk about. Good thing. I think a lot of councellors would think I was nuts...sometimes I think I'm nuts, lol...

Even though I'm feeling "ucky", I think things are still looking up. This time off will give me some space to re-evaluate my life, so I can make the necessary changes, so that maybe...just maybe, I won't have to have a day job to make ends meet. Maybe when this is all done, I'll be able to go part time and have an income, so I can work on the business, and eventually quit. Maybe...juuussttt maybe!

Day 22... Still hangin' In!

2006-03-31T10:27:00.000-08:00

I got through yesterday, which was rather challenging to say the least. I was feeling rather "ucky" this morning, but not too bad now. Still in my jammies though. My goal right now, to spend the weekend resting up, and once I know know if I get approved for the time off thing, I'll be able to figure out what I'm going to be doing for the next while.

If I get a approved, I'll be getting down to work on the business next week. My goal...to really get down to business of creating that e-book so I can get on with creating my passive income. All with the goal in mind of either being able to drop my hours at work, and eventually quit altogether. That place really is toxic for me. It's taken me 4 days of doing nothing but...well...nothing, just to feel okay. Not great, just okay. I'm still tired though, but will improve with time.

Yesterday afternoon, I went out onto the balcony for a while to catch some fresh spring air. Every once in a while, I would catch this really amazing spring like smell, not unlike things coming back to life. (go figure!) It would, for a split second every time, make me feel like spring. You know that feeling, like all is good with the world. But after that split second retreated from whence it came, I went back to feeling like I would never feel good again. I know this is not true, but tell that to your emotions. They just kinda go, "Ya, right. Maybe in the next lifetime!". I finally went back inside, leaving the patio door wide open, because I knew on some level, that the fresh air was doing me some good. I layed down on the couch with the blankie that my Grandma Smith made for me when I was 8, and just allowed myself to feel crappy.

I think that's actually the trick with all of this stuff. If you feel like crap, don't fight it, just feel it, with every fibre of your being. Because ya know, before too long (I think I actually fell asleep for a few minutes, until the phone rang...), I was starting to feel okay again. I kept thinking to myself, "how am I ever going to get through this?" Then I asked for some serious Divine Intervention, and just breathed in the wonderful spring air, and I just started feeling better. Tired, but better.

As soon as Danard gets off the phone, I'm going to call the HR department, and see how things are progressing with my application for time off. In the meantime, I'm going to continue to do nothing.

More later,
Morgana

Day 21...already?!?

2006-03-30T09:31:00.000-08:00

Well. I've been rather complacent in posting these days. Actually a better description would be absolutely exhausted to the point of near collapse. I've also started having anxiety attacks again - something I hadn't experienced in a very long time. I learned how to deal with, stop eventually completely obliterate my anxiety. That is, until I started this job. It didn't start right away, but it wasn't long after starting, that I felt the rumblings of that fear, creeping in. I've spend the past 5 days, using every technique, skill and ability that I have, not to mention, a tremendous amount of energy, to keep a full blown anxiety attack from kicking in. I've been more or less successfull at that, but to the complete depletion of my ability to function as a relatively normal human being.

I went to work on Monday, barely got through the day, and have been calling in sick everday since. I actually went to a councellor on Tuesday about all of this, which I have been told, is not unheard of at this job. There is one thing good about this job, other than the regular pay cheque and really good health benifit package. They also have short term disability insurance. You can get up to 30 days off at full pay. If you have to be off work longer than that, you can qualify for 70% of your pay. I'm now in the process of having the paperwork to submit (and hopefully get approved for) much needed some time off.

Of course, I've been dilgent in keeping everyone informed at work - my team manager, scheduling and the hr departement. The forms needs to be submitted by tomorrow. My councellor (who is fabulous, by the way) said she won't have time to work on it today, due to a lot of bookings today. I'm hoping she can have it done so we can fax it tomorrow.

Anyhoo...that's my life right now. My plan when and if I'm approved for time off? First - to get my energy back, to learn how to get a good night's sleep again, and generallly get healthy again. Second, to figure out what I'm going to do about this whole job thing....maybe start looking for a new one that's more in line with my path. Third - to work on my ebook in which I have an outline that's now 13 chapters long so I can start building that passive income. Goal, maybe even to have it finished. Fourth - to spend some time working on my paintings, and maybe start trying my hand at watercolors, which is not one of my strong points as an artist, to say the least.

It is very interesting, the changes that have taken place over the past 21 days of this exeriment. I do believe that setting that goal has had everything to do with the way things have played out. I was trying to meditate last night, and had some interesting insights. Not sure if these "insights" area really insights, or just that I have completelyl lost my freekin' mind already, but here goes. My feeling was that this time off thing that's in the works, is actually my "safety net" that my higher self has been telling me about for the past 2 months, in terms of that feeling that I had to just quit the day job, altogether. Once I had made the decision to go part time, by no later than May 1, something began to happen. My stress level, that was already at an altime high, went literally beyond my max. My feeling last night was that my higher self / guides, and whoever else had something to do with this, was actually intentionally pushing me to my limit and beyond, so that I would get to the point where I would have to put an application in for time off, or I might end up in the hospital.

This, I was told, was needed for 2 reasons: (1) being that I'm someone who does not abuse a system like this, and would much rather just continue to deal with my job and the stress, than take time off, I had to get pushed to the point where I was getting sick to actually make the decision to apply. (2) so that whoever ended up filling out the forms for me, would really see what this place is doing to me mentally, emotionally, spiritually an physically. I needed to be "at the end of my rope" so to speak, for that to happen.

And believe me, I've been at the end, pretty much. But there's hope now. I won't be taking on any clients for a while yet, needless to say, as I need to work on myself for a while. Plus, we have to spend time getting ready for the Body, Soul and Spirit Expo coming soon. Once I do my own self healing, I suspect that I'll be better than ever and ready to start my new life!! I'm looking forward to that.

If there's anyone out there reading this who is a "potential client or student", I'd like to add this disclaimer: In no way, will this state of mind I'm currently in, affect my ability to perform as a Reiki Master / Teacher / Medical Intuitive. This is completely temporary.

We all go through our "stuff", even healers do, and then have to deal with it. We just need to know when to take time out to take care of ourselves, and I'm learning that lesson up close and personally. Once I get through this phase, I'll be even more capable of showing others, tools to help heal themselves. The idea is to learn from the experience and move on. Hopefully in a way that can help others in the process.

In any case, I'm going to go continue doing the self care thing, and try to do as little as possible for the rest of the day.

More later gang...
Morgana

Soul Cards Favorites

2006-03-24T22:12:00.000-08:00

Here's a few more of my favorite cards from the Soul Cards Deck. Aren't they gorgeous?!?

Morgana

Day 14 and 15 - Sometimes you feel like a nut...somedays you feel like...$%&*#@!!!

2006-03-24T21:44:00.000-08:00

I've never been so exhausted in all my life...okay...maybe a small exaggeration, but not by much! I think this has been the longest work week ever. And that is saying a lot, being that everyday at work, is a long week. And since I'm feeling so exhausted, I'm going to be lazy, and blend 2 days into one. Not that there were any insights yesterday anyway.

I did however, make some big progress on a painting that I started working on a week and a half ago at one of our Reiki circles. I got inspired last night. Which started by printing up some samples of this really amazing tarot deck that I've been coveting for about 2 months now. The artwork in this deck is incredible. See the pic to the right - it's one of them. I picked that one for this post because it's kinda how I feel today.

It's called Soul Cards. I've been wanting to buy that deck only somewhat for the purpose of doing readings. The main reason is for the inpiring artwork that has given rise to an actual artist in me. The colors are the kind that I love to use in my paintings, and the style of art, is what I've been trying to achieve. So, I had fun last night. It's kinda cool, cuz when I was much younger - early 20's - when I first moved from sketching and pastels, to oil, acrylic and canvas, I always wanted to be able to paint what was in my head, but could never get past the critique. You know the one. The one who tells you that anything you put on canvas is going to look like a 3 year old created it.

About 6 months ago, I started doodling one day, and next thing you know, I was doing this really neat stuff that actually looked like art. I decided to venture out and try that with paint. I started slowly, with a thunderbird that I did, which took me about 6 months, and still...really isn't completely finished. I've done a few abstracts since then, and in about 3 paintings, I've gone from looking like a very angry 6 year old, to something that might actually pass for art. With a definitive influence from the Soul Cards. I was totally in my bliss last night. I'd love to do that everyday, all day, and just do that...well...mixed in with writing, singing, doing healing work and readings...maybe occasionally skiing...

I'll post a few more examples of these wonderful cards, in my next post...

Anyway, despite my complete exhaustion, bordering on breakdown, I feel inspired everytime I think, or walk by my "baby" sitting on the easel.

Today, I ordered both Soul Cards decks from Amazon with a gift card I got from work for booking my vacation early. It was an incentive to get people to take time off now, because we've been "overstaffed" with a lack of calls coming in. At least, this is what they've been telling us. I was a little miffed when I found out that this gift card, that I was under the original impression, would be a cash gift card that you could spend anywhere, including just getting cash so I could pay my share of the gas bill with. I got over that really fast when I saw that one of the stores you could use that card at was Amazon. Immedialely, I jumped for joy, and up from my desk (it was my break) and ran for the nearest public computer located in the cafeteria of our office, to get online, to order my cards. Even stranger?! Last night, when I had been looking around Amazon.ca, they only had the 2nd edition of soul cards, not the first one. Today, they had both. Go figure. And they were both, almost half the price of what you would pay for them at a retail store. Yippeee!!!! My order confirmation says I'll have them in my hot little hands by Wednesday of next week. I love the speed of ordering from Amazon. They are so wonderful.

And I just had a thought that popped into my head as I was writing this. I wasn't supposed to be able to spend that $50 on practical stuff like my gas bill. I was supposed to buy something that I really really wanted, that inspires me. It was there to teach me to take care of myself by not withholding the things that really mean something to me, from myself. That it's important to pamper yourself once in a while, otherwise, you start to feel very deprived, and eventually resentful because you can't have those things you really want. Which, I realize now, is a big pattern in my life. I really do withold those things that I really want, even if it's achieving a dream as if I don't deserve it. Gotta stop that now!

I think we're all victim (er...well...not really victim...it really is a choice we make) to that sometimes.

Okay. I"m done now. I'll write more tomorrow. Danard and I went to see What the Bleep 2 tonight. Had some aha's during that too. But I'll save that for later...for now. It's bed time for me.

G'Night to all!
Morgana

Day 13 - Sychronicity Strikes

2006-03-22T18:07:00.001-08:00

This will be a shorter post this time. Cool stuff today that I think shows that I'm on the right track. I was talking to HB (see link to her blog on the right) about the stuff I've been talking about here. I happened to mention how lousy I am at the concept of building a website, and she mentioned that her hubby, Tim, is really good at that kind of stuff. So, I asked if he might be willing to help out with this project on a trade. I figger that between Leigh, Tim, HB, myself and Danard, we should be able to muster something together that would look pretty dern cool. So...we're having a meeting on Sunday morning, this coming to discuss it all.

This new happening conincedence? I think not...let's keep the synchronicities comin'!!!

HB also loved the idea (which I posted to her blog) about having regular Mastermind meetings. So, Leigh, if you're reading this...we're askin' if you'd like to be a part of all of this as well. (including if you're healthy enough to have a meeting on Sunday morning with us) So, that's the plan for this week, other than me continuing to work on the e-book.

On that note, seeing as I haven't worked on it since yesterday, in between calls at work, I'd better get to work on that. Er...maybe I should have dinner first though.

Okay...that's all for now. Stay tuned!
Morgana

Day 12 - One more big job done!

2006-03-22T16:55:00.000-08:00

Well, it seems that I'm actually getting things done these days. Having a definative goal really helps to put things into focus. The fire to keep those promises to myself, is of course, being able to eventually be gainfully SELF EMPLOYED!

Yesterday, being day 12, I got my well organized receipts and T4's transported over to one of my Reiki students, who does my taxes every year. So, sometime in the not too distant future, I'll know what my tax return will be. I'm hoping (as everyone does) that it will be a big one. Last year was really good, so I'm hoping for at least that amount. I figure, because I made about the same amount of money in 2005, and had more business expenses, that my return this year will be even better. Even if it's around the same though, I've educatedly hypothesised (say that 10 times fast...hehe) that I'll have enough of a cushion that I could easily drop to part time very soon, like say...in the next month at the outside. I'm so excited about that! Give me a sense of not only muchly needed relief, but that also there is a light at the end of the tunnel that I can actually see now.

On that note, last night I had an epiphany. I was sitting at the computer after Danard and I got home from Barb's place, looking at Caroline Myss's site. If anyone out there doesn't know who she is, you need to find out, she's fantastic. She's a world renowned medical intuitive, who has books, cd's, dvd, and does lectures all over the world. I've been studing her stuff, for about a year now. Anyway. I was looking at something on her site, and I had one of those moments where you hear a voice in your head...you know...THOSE moments. lol...

So, I don't remember what it was I was reading exactly, but this voice started talking to me...I'm assessing that I was my higher self who had frankly just become indignant to the fact that I hadn't acted on her guidance, dispite the frequent kicks in the proverbial ass, that I need to trust and take this leap of faith, instead of trying to find another way out of it (ie. the "safe" way out...) Well, she shows up, giving me this image in my mind of her standing in front of me with her hands on her hips saying (in a very booming, authoritative voice) "So, if you keep getting these intuitive hits to quit or at least drop to part time hours at the job...why the hell haven't you done that yet?!?" She continues by reminding me that "if you really trust this info that's coming through, then just freekin' take the leap, already".

Ya...I got blasted good. So, I thought about that for a while, gently reminded by one part in a Myss CD that we have that talks about how sometimes the HS will make us feel so incredibly uncomfortable in the current situation, that it will give you no other option than to make a change. So, I took that as my final hint.

Upon heading to bed, I decided to talk to Danard about this...still not really trusting what I should do with this not so new information. Yes...trust is a bit of an issue when it comes to my intuition. Ironic, being that it's my intent to do this intuitive thing for a living. So, as we were talking, I finally decided to actually make a decision. Yes...me...indecisive me, actually made a definative choice. That decision, you ask? That by no later than May 1 of 2006, I WILL be dropping my hours back to part time. That I WILL have some money saved by then. That I WILL NOT spend my income tax money on stupid shit. That no matter how much money is saved by then to cushion me, I WILL be going part time on or before May 1. Period. End of Story! Done Deal...

I've actually done some math and even if I only had $1500 saved by then, which is waaaaaayyy conservative, I'd still have enough cushion for a shortfall - income wise - of $400 / month for almost 4 months. This without taking into consideration that by then, the powers that be at work, will be screaming for everyone to take extra shifts to cover the demand of the incoming calls. So that if I absolutely have to, I can take extra shifts to cover my butt, but have the flexibility of not having to. For a while, anyway... In the meantime, I'll be busting my ass so hard that I'll be black and blue, to get this passive income at least started to cover that shortfall, and beyond, and to of course, eventually quit altogether.

So, that's where I leave off for Day 12...

Read the next post for Day 13
Morgana

Day 11 - Inspiration Strikes Again!

2006-03-20T21:22:00.000-08:00

Well...I've been inspired these days. I've been introduced to something called E-Books. Ooh..writing...something I enjoy and am hopefully reasonably good at. You can create books that can be marketed online thru websites, and sold online, and downloaded once the person has forked over the cash. And of course, I have a million ideas for things I could publish that way, that will also become the basis for actual courses.

I've been brainstorming ideas for classes I can teach besides Reiki, so I had already begun this process. Now I'm working on building these books, so I can sell them and create my passive income doing something that I enjoy.

My first one will be on connecting and communication with your Higher Self. I just started working on that one tonight. My goal: to have it done in no more than 6 weeks. Sooner, if I really motor...

Day 10 (Sunday)- Things are looking up a bit...with a Ray 'O Sunshine poking thru the clouds...

2006-03-20T21:15:00.000-08:00

I was still feeling a bit "icky" on Sunday, but not nearly as bad as Saturday. I was on the mend, so to speak. Danard went to a healing circle out of town. I stayed home and cleaned house, and got ready for my meeting with Leigh, and for our weekly Sunday night Reiki circle.

The meeting was awesome (thanks Leigh!!! You rock!!). Basically the short of it is, she's going to write some articles about us, and have them published in her usual channels, and touch us...ie FREE advertising for Thunderbird Sky. And she gets paid for her articles, so it's win-win.

She’s also going to help us build a website. Which I’m frustrated beyond all belief with, and frankly, have no time to do. I need to focus on these dern e-books (see day 11) that I’m working on, to build that passive income. All of this stuff, and whatever else Leigh comes up with, will be done on a trade basis. Something that I just love. We haven’t been able to do anything about getting a site built because we just don’t have the hard cash to do it. Trades work for me, as long as they are win-win, and this one is. Leigh will get Reiki and readings when she wants, and we get marketing and potentially the ability to at least drop my hours to part time at the day job. Whoo-Hoo! I’m all for that!!

Leigh’s also going to show me how to get articles published for actual money. She’s already given some good suggestions for that. But my focus is still first on the e-books. I think the articles will pop out of those.

Well, I guess I can't say that I haven't gotten anything done. I also got my receipts all ready and organized for taxes, and even tallied up with totals in each category. Now, I just have to get those receipts to my accountant, who's actually a student of mine. My goal there...to call her this week and find out when I can go up to her place and drop my file folder off.

Morgana

Day 9 (Saturday)..Ugh, somedays you just don't wanna get out of bed...

2006-03-20T21:13:00.000-08:00

Danard and I went to play this funky board game called Cash Flow. It's based on this book called "Rich Dad, Poor Dad", which of course, I haven't read, but Danard has. It basically teaches you how you deal with money, and makes you aware of how to create a passive income. This passive income thing, which I started learning about last June at a Millionaire Mind intensive weekend (when they call it an intensive, they really ain't kidding on that!). Basicially, a passive income is just that. Something that you can set up that, once it's actually set up, the only thing you need to do is collect the money. Yes, this thing does exist, and it's the key to getting out of the rat race. Create enough of that passive income to cover all of your expenses, and you don't HAVE to work for a living, unless you CHOOSE to. When I first heard of this thing, they gave examples of things like owning vending machines, and...ya know...I can't even remember what else, because it was all stuff I had absolutely no interested in getting into myself.

I was really depressed after that game, feeling like I no chance of hell in getting out of my rat race mentality, much less, actually physically getting out...I was a mess on Saturday night. Danard and I had a big fight, but made up after that. We talked about things after he came back for a long walk, and watched a video on healing your childhood. Very powerful. I bawled my eyes out the whole time. And the house is at peace again!

Morgana

2006-03-17T22:23:00.000-08:00

That's all I have to say in this post. I'm just glad to see that The Other Side, is finally back online!

Morgana

Day 6 and 7.....

2006-03-16T23:04:00.001-08:00

In hopes that blogspot gets these technical issues sorted out quickly, I'll copy my post from TBS, over to here, which is where this one belongs to begin with...

I think I'm on day 6 of the "changing my reality" series. I don't seem to be too good at keeping on top of things with my posts over there, or here for that matter. My "excuse" you ask? Well, when ya get home from work after dealing with crabby customers all day, who wants to sit in front of the computer any longer? A lot of times, not me, that's for sure.

But, enough of that. Complaining won't get me anywhere, lol. Onward and Upward...

We left of last episode with Danard and Candice having just had a long meeting with Wes and Angela about web marketing. Ugh! All I can say is that it seems as if the more information that I get on this whole subject, the more confused and frustrated I get. Sometimes, I really wish that I could live in the whole "ignorance is bliss" mentality, because sometimes, I really think it would be easier. But alas, we're trying to run a business, so I guess I have to give in and just go with it, and learn as much as I can.

We're looking forward to our next meeting on Sunday with my good friend and fellow blogster, Leigh, from The Spinning Pen (have I mentioned that she's a fabulous writer yet? If not, I say Go See Her Blog!!!She's great!!! Danard and I are meeting with her because she has agreed, unless we really unimpress her on Sunday, on a trade of services. We provide her with relaxation and readings and stuff of that nature, and she provides us with HELP in the marketing of our little baby called Thunderbird Sky. I actually ran into her at work the other day, as she was temping as team manager while ours was in training. She gave me a slight hint on what she's going to be presenting to us on Sunday. Something about a 3 pronged marketing plan, as she gets this...mischievious yet excited look on her face that made her look like she had the secret to the universe in her back pocket. So, needless to say, I'm very intrigued as to what she has up her lovely little sleeve, and how it may possible have an influence as to if and how I can quit my day job.

We'll be giving her a session - a reading and a reiki - what we've lovingly nicknamed the "R 'n R", to not only help her do some needed relaxin' that she needs, but to give her an idea of just what it is that we have to offer the world, and why it needs to get out there to the masses, and all the movie stars and rock stars of the world! ---I only hope that we're really THAT good...hehe.

So, who knows, maybe there's hope yet for me. Maybe I can keep my sanity in tact for a little while longer. Hopefully long enough to survive my hopefully short stint at (Insert company name here...).

Stay tuned...
Morgana

Day 5 - Hmmm - Web Marketing - What to do next??

2006-03-14T23:10:00.000-08:00

We had a meeting today about this vast topic that frankly, even though I'm more informed as to things one can do to market yourself online and potentially create what is known as a "passive income", I think I'm more confused than ever. Okay...but at least I have a goal...er rather, one more goal to add to my ever growing list of goals. (when does it ever end???) To write a really brilliant e-book that millions of people will want to buy, so that I can quit my annoying, yet financially stable day job.

Now...I have to not only narrow down a topic that I can write about, which I have quite a lot of ideas for, but figure out how to put it into book form. I've been a natural writer since I was a kid, but quite frankly, I've never had the urge to write a book. But then...I have a lot of knowledge in this area of spirituality and such, that I'm sure I could write several. So, one more thing that I have to find time to do. Ugh. But I have to look at it this way. It'll be worth it in the end, and probably be a lot of fun too. So, I have a few different e-books, then maybe...juuussstt maybe, I might be able to create enough passive income so that I can quit my wonderful day job, so I can focus on what I really want to do.

Okay...now to start my new big project. Maybe anyone (if there is anyone) reading this, could provide some feedback on things you would like to learn about in relation to healing work, intuitive "stuff", reiki, energy healing, spirituality. Anything in those types of headings, but certainly not limited to. This might help me figure out what kind of info people are looking to learn about.

Okay. That's all for now. I think it's time for bed, my brain hurts now!

More later...

Blessings,
MorganaSacredWalker

Day 3 and 4 of changing my reality

2006-03-13T20:22:00.001-08:00

Boy...do I ever suck at writing a blog post everyday. Maybe I'll have to just resign myself to the fact that I'll have to incorporate 2 days of my day by day accounts of how I'm going about the process of acutally changing my reality, every second day...or so...

In any case, today's installment will be 2 days in one.

Day 3 which was actually Sunday, March 12

Danard picked me up from my whirlwind 2 day Art and Spirit worshop which was absolutely amazing! I've learned a lot about myself, and developed a whole new level of confidence in my ability to actually BE an artist. Where do I begin with my experiences at the class. We started off the weekend (Saturday) with a little bit of "dancing while painting" which was interesting. Interesting meaning, I had a hell of a hard time not spraying paint all over the wall and floor beside and under my large canvas made of poster paper. hehe...little kid comes out to play, with my mean adult looming close by to inforce the "clean up" policy, with a nearby art teacher insisting that it really was okay to make a mess, because it was poster paint we were using that is water solluable. (see later on in this post for the results of that experiment!)

After that, we actually danced around the room, to get us more loostened up (Patrick musta thought we were pretty...well...not so loose, that we needed to do that, lo.), by using our whole bodies to "paint in the air" so to speak. It was kinda fun too. Then we would go back to our walls, and dance while painting a little more. He would encourage us to stand back at our canvases full of color that really didn't seem to make any sense whatsoever, to see if we saw any other images coming through. Mine turned into a tree that took up 2 more sheets of paper. Later, it was discovered that there was a blue fairy sitting on one of the branches, and the beginning of angel wings forming beside the tree, which later became a full fledged angel.

We also did those grade one art projects where you lay on a big sheet of paper, trace out your body and paint those. We really go in touch with our inner 5 yr olds that day. Mine, again...became a big ol' angel with these really cool irridecent wings of gold, blue, silver pink, purple, etc. It now hangs on our wall going up the stairs to the kitchen. I was going to take it down today, but Danard says he likes it up there and said we should keep it there. Not sure why I wanted to take it down, but I'm sure that has some kind of inner meaning too.

We also made a collage of whatever images or words that grabbed our attention in the myriad of magazines that he brought. Mine was interested, as there was lots of images of "taking big leaps" of various kinds...maybe that means something? hehe...I could get into the detail of all the images that came out, where they were placed in relation to other images, and the symbolic messages of those, but it would take too long in this one email, so I'll leave that for another day.

The short of it all is, I learned a lot, and I'm more confident in my abilities as an artist of the "oil on canvas" sort. Patrick commented that he actually saw me as someone who is an artist. I think meaning that maybe I have some potential to do more with it besides paint something and hide it in a closet somewhere. Who knows...I do know I really enjoy the prcess.

I started a new painting last night during Reiki circle. It's turning out really cool. Can't explain it, just lotsa color and much more confident looking in the brush strokes. It actually looks like something that a pro would create.

Oh...and about the "clean up job" of washing the paint splatters from the floors and walls...hehe...it wasn't as easy as I was told it would be. I just hope for Patrick's sake, that the manager of the community centre doesn't notice the few spots I wasn't able to get clean. That's all I have to say...hehe. It was really fun to freely be able to make a mess though...(little kid "evil" laugh!)

Day 4 (Monday)

Today...work...day job, not much else to say, except the fact that I've today decided to at least start calling around to various spas, massage clinics and other healing type clinics to see if they need a Reiki pracitioner. I really need to get out of my day job. I'm really tired of listening to customers complain about stupid stuff like "why is my bill screwed up"? I've put an application into a spa, who's looking for a receptionist. Not the specific job I'm looking for, but at least in the right industry. I hope they pay decent and will have decent hours. I haven't heard anything yet. Hopefully soon. I'm not getting my hopes up though, but who knows.

Okay...that's all for now. More later...

Blessings,
Morgana

Day 2 of Changing my Reality

2006-03-12T08:35:00.001-08:00

I was going to write last, which was actually day 2 but alas, I was way too exhausted to sit in front of the computer, so I'm writing this morning, to fill in.

Yesterday, was the first day of a 2 day Art and Spirit workshop I'm taking, which is really about healing with art. Really cool class, actually. It got very emotional at times. Our instructor is the "model" of what art instructors should be like. He's able to pull (or help you to do that) stuff out of you that you didn't know was there. Really cool stuff.

I'll write more about the class tonight, as I have to head out the door for today's class...

More later,
Morgana

Day One of "Changing My Reality"...

2006-03-10T09:34:00.001-08:00

I've come to a decision...well...sort of. It's been one thats been on my mind for quite some time now, but it's now got to the point where I can't stand it anymore and something MUST be done. I have to quit my day job as soon as humanly, or more appropriately - DIVINELY possible. The challenge I've been facing with that is, of course, the money situation...or lack thereof. It's not to say that I'm broke, because I'm not. I do have a bit of savings, but not enough to cover the lack of clients walking through the door to cover my bills while we're building the business. THIS is the question.

I know what I need to do, I'm just not sure how to do it. I know that it needs to happen soon, or I'm going end up having to place myself (voluntarily, or not..hehe) into some sort of institution where y0u can wear funny clothing where you get to hug yourself all day, inside a room where the walls are bouncy.

Danard and I went to this networking thing this morning - bright and early at 7am, which is quite a feat for me. There's this organization called Intelechi, they do business and life coaching, and they have a once a month breakfast to talk about various topics to get your business and life in order and working the way you want it to. Anyway. The topic today was "how to build a successful mastermind group". What's a mastemind group, you ask? Well, before today, I had no idea either, but it's a pretty cool concept.

Basically, you get a group of hopefully likeminded people, though it doesn't have to be, to brainstorm whatever it is that you need brainstorming. It works on the idea that "2 heads are better than one". So, if you pull together 4 or 5, you can come up with ideas that you wouldn't be able to on your own.

So, we did this excercise where you have a paper plate - (ie. having a lot on "your plate" to do) and you literally write down everything that needs to get done, that occupies your mind, goals..things like that. You visually put it on your plate in proportions of how much it's a priority, taking up your time, etc. Of course, you literally get a visual of what you need to do. Then you pick the one thing that is the most important on your plate and you go around the group and talk individually about what that thing is. Here's where the power comes in. You discuss in a group, ideas of how to accomplish that goal. This is where the synergy happens. Our group was only an example of this process, so we barely got into the brainstorming thing, but it gave us an idea of how powerful this process is.

After that, the coaches talked about deciding on one step you can take today to make that happen, so that in 30 days, your goal is accomplished. I acutually got pretty fired up about the idea of being able to either quit, or go to part time hours at the day job. They talked about putting a big red circle on today's date on the calendar as today being the day to "step up and do something", and 30 days from now, it fully being accomplished. So, I'm setting an official goal. 30 days from now I WILL BE ABLE TO GO PART TIME AT THE DAY JOB! I've decided that, even though I really want to just quit, to give myself a less scarey goal of just going part time. And if I accomplish more, then cool. The idea of being able to altogether quit that soon, intimidates me too much and I'm likely to choke first, just on the idea. So, I'm going take in smaller steps.

So...what to do now. Not sure, but Danard and I are getting together with 2 of the people that was in our group, who we've met with before, and talk about some of this stuff. I'm thinking I'd like to do a regular Mastermind Meetup group as well.

How it all turns out...stay tuned!

Blessings to all,
MorganaSacredWalker

My Personal Rant Page (or other general meanderings!)

2006-03-07T23:19:00.000-08:00

I've decided that it would be best to keep our Thunderbird Sky blog as professional as possible, and have my own personal site where I can say whatever is on my mind at that exact moment, without fear of repercussions in the business. At least this is the theory. So...here I am, after midnight, officially turning a lovely shade of pumpkin orange, as it's well past my beddy time. This post will be short. Needless to say, I'm here, hoping that I won't be the only person here paying attentiont to my somewhat daily "rant". Or, maybe that's a good thing if that ends up being the case. Not sure if anyone really would be interested in hearing me vent about how I really dislike my day job.

Anyhoo. Tonight is a short post as I now REALLY have to get to bed. I can feel the pumpkin seeds forming in my stomache now, soon I will be very very round and even more orange, and won't be able to move from my spot until morning because I'll be attached to my seat with the vines that I've grown from being turned into a pumpkin. hehe...

More ramblings later.

Blessings,
MorganaSacredWalker