Okay, so it's decided that I'm not that great at posting something everyday, but I'm doing better than what I normally do with journalling. I have no excuse for not writing over the weekend, except that I just didn't feel like it. So, I'll do one of those recaps....

After I wrote in my journal on Friday, I got a delivery at the door - the Soul Cards that I ordered from Amazon. They're pretty cool. The really cool thing, is that this is a deck, that if you use them for readings, they don't give you the meanings for the cards in the book. The book only teaches you how to interpret them, which could be different for every reading. The artwork is designed to trigger stuff in your subconscious - kinda like the inkblots that shrinks use to analyse what's going on inside a patient's head. And of course, the artwork is amazing on this cards. I haven't used them yet, for inspiration for my own art work yet, but that will be coming soon.


I had one of those weekends in general where I honestly don't even remember what I was doing. Sunday I remember, but Saturday is a blank. I know I did...stuff, but to remember what, might take a bit of effort to recall. Even as I sit trying to get some image of what I did all day, it's a complete and total blank.


Yesterday felt a lot busier than it actually was. I spent the morning doing absolutely nothing. I was barely able to lift myself off of the couch, much less anything else. Whilst Danard decided to go to church. Yes, that ugly 6 letter word that I can't stand. He does this ever now and again, I think just to experience different points of view on spirituality. I went with him once to a church on Centre St., it was...interesting. Maybe I'll write about that adventure sometime, but for now, I'll just say that I admire his curiosity for other religions. I for one, fully admit that I have far too many of my own hang-ups about organized religions, to be that curious. Yesterday, he went to a Jehova Witness church. He asked if I wanted to do...I declined. He even took a Jehova bible with him that he picked up from who knows where. Eek, scary. I don't think he's turning religious on me though...at least I hope not, lol!

He decided to try to play a joke on me when he got home. Instead of letting himself in, he rang the doorbell, as if he was one of those door to do religion salesmen. I, of course, looked out the window before I went downstairs before answering, so I knew it was him. I just thought he left his keys at home. When I opened the door, he made some comment that was like the usual intro that the canvassers use. What a goofball he is...in a good way of course. He's good at doing silly things to try to make me laugh, and often succeeds at it too. Which is touch these days, but he's good at it.

After that, we got together with Leigh, Heather and Tim, to have our first Mastermind meeting (see one of my previous posts about that topic). We did some brainstorming at this exotic hot dog cafe called Le Chien Chaud. I had a French hot dog: dijon, sauteed mushrooms, gruyer cheese. Really good..especially for a hot dog. Next time, I'm going to try the Chicago.

After that, it was our Reiki circle. We had dinner beforehand, and only 1 person showed up. I went into depression mode, thinking that it was because of me and my complaining about my job and just generally being depressed all the time, that we had only 1 guest. I'm still not convinced that I wasn't because of me that people seem to have stopped coming, but I'm just not going to think about it, or it'll make me more depressed.

I had a good session. I actually got my mind to shut up for a change. I pretty much was "out" for most of my session. I wanted to go straight to bed after that, but Danard wouldn't let me, as we still had one more session to do on the friend of ours who came out. I just sat on the rocker and participated in his session from a few feet away. I was "out" for most of that session too. As soon as we were done, I went to bed. I slept okay last night, but not great. I hope that I can eventually be rested when I sleep, so I can actually have energy during the day. I'm sure eventually I will. I do have hope about that...


Not much to say about today, except that I've heard from work, about my application for time off. Good news is that they're covering me up until April 13 at the very least. They're mailing me a form I have to fill out with more questions they have for me. Then they'll decide on the rest of my time off, if I get it or not. I sure hope so...

I did manage to muster up some energy to do some work on my book. I have about 3 quarters of the first chapter done. I got that far, and pooped out. It only took me about 45 minutes to write that much, and then I was too tired to write more. My goal is to write a chapter a day. Which, being that it's only a workbook, should be a pretty realistic goal. I write fast...

Anyhoo...that's all for now. I know my writing lately, isn't exactly upbeat, like I prefer to do, but at least I'm writing, which I think does help. Even if few people read this blog, lol... I think this process is more for me anyway. Kinda like therapy..which I have another appointment booked for on Friday. I like my councellor. She's really good, and understands all of this energy stuff that I talk about. Good thing. I think a lot of councellors would think I was nuts...sometimes I think I'm nuts, lol...

Even though I'm feeling "ucky", I think things are still looking up. This time off will give me some space to re-evaluate my life, so I can make the necessary changes, so that maybe...just maybe, I won't have to have a day job to make ends meet. Maybe when this is all done, I'll be able to go part time and have an income, so I can work on the business, and eventually quit. Maybe...juuussttt maybe!