I decided to do some writing right at this moment, because it's too early to go to bed, and Danard is watching a DVD about bugs. Eek! We started watching it last night, and I ended up running away from the living room squeeling like a girl. There's nothing like losing the cool exterior like queeling at the sight of a big, black, ugly, abnormally LARGE moth (or some othercreepy crawly-like creature) on your TV screen. Not exactly what I had in mind the evening's enertainment!!!

So I'm here, in the other room, trying NOT to listen in, because then I just get visuals in my head that are potentially far worse that what's actually on the screen at the moment. So what do bugs and dentists have to do with each other (as per tonights title) you ask??? Absolutely squat.

I just had a dentist appointment today and finally got the freezing out of my mouth about an hour ago. I HATE the dentist, as most people do. Not that I have anything against the particular human who is doing my dental work, my current dentist is actually quite fabulous. I just hate the whole concept and procedure. Especially today's ordeal. I'm having the remaining 4 mercury fillings replaced by the white fillings, plus I have a cracked tooth (over top of which was one of the fillings to be remodeled) that as of now, has a temporary crown, which will be replaced by a porcelain one in 2 weeks.

The crown, wasn't so bad. One of the replacement fillings...wasn't so bad. It was the very large filling that had been there since I was a kid, THAT was the bad one. Apparently the filling had degraded or something, and underneath was a lot of decay...nearly to the root. Basically, I very narrowly escaped a root canal. Needless to say, despite the 2 needles in my jaw, which currenly hurt like a sonuvabitch, I still felt pain. Danard was an angel though. He sat with my in my appointment, forced to listen to the drilling (I think that's the worst part of the whole thing), and Reiki'd me the whole time. (2 and a half hours) He has to be the most patient, kind being in the universe, to be willing...he was the one who offered his services, because he knew I was very nervous....to sit with me through all of that. This is one of the many things that I love so much about him. I think I would have not made it through that appointment, had it not been for him. So, thank you to Danard! You are my angel!!!

My whole body, especially my neck, is seized up because I was in a complete state of anxiety the whole time. I'm thinking a hot bath would be in order right about now. Anyhoo. It's all done and I'm very very glad for that.

Okay...last night, I thought it would be a cool idea to recap my 30 day experiment. To those who may not know what I'm talking about. 34 days ago, I went to a workshop on something called creating your own Mastermind Group. A group where you brainstorm each others ideas for whatever it is your trying to create, or solve. And you all come up with ideas for that...whatever it is. I had an inspiration to have a "30 Change My Reality" experiment, to see where it would take me, and what would change in that 30 days. So...here were are at day 34. Let's see what's changed...

I started off with a really huge focus of how to get out of the day job because it was making me completely miserable, and causing a lot of tension and stress on the home front as well. Not to mention the depression and anxiety as well. What I've created since day 1 is the following:

1) I'm now on Chapter 3 of my first book, that I'll be publishing as an e-book. Authoring was something I never had interest in doing before this. The whole thing came from the suggestion from a friend of ours who told about this e-book thing and that you can create a passive income from it. COOL!!!

2) I've got 2 new paintings nearly completed.

3) I've got ideas for several books and what will become workshops that I'll be teaching.

4) I've been off work for 2 weeks now, at full time pay, on stress leave. I will be off for sure, for another 2 weeks, possibly longer.

5) I'm seeing a councellor to help deal with my stress, depression and anxiety. It is helping.

6) I have some other business / promotion thing in the works for this summer, with the help of some brainstorming from a couple other friends.

7) We have help from yet other friends, with building a website. (thank you again, Tim, Heather and Leigh) Done on a trade, which is very cool.

8) Leigh will be helping with marketing as she is very, very good at it. This will also be done on a trade basis, which is fabulous as we don't actually have cash to pay for marketing.

9) Danard and I will be taking a marketing workshop at the end of May that is a "pay what you can" deal. We did the intro tonight, and it looks like it will be really an amazing weekend.

So, lots has shifted since the beginning of this experiment. As a result, I have decided to continue this on to a 60 day thing, if anything, just to see what happens. It seems, lots has happened in the first 30, it can only get better from here.

Now...to tackle the not sleeping issue. Once I can get a decent night sleep where I don't feel like I'd been run over by a city bus when I wake up, I might be able to speed this process up. In the meantime, let's just see where this all goes, shall weeeee???

Okee, NOW it's time for bed. G'night all!

Morgana