Well, it seems that I'm actually getting things done these days. Having a definative goal really helps to put things into focus. The fire to keep those promises to myself, is of course, being able to eventually be gainfully SELF EMPLOYED!

Yesterday, being day 12, I got my well organized receipts and T4's transported over to one of my Reiki students, who does my taxes every year. So, sometime in the not too distant future, I'll know what my tax return will be. I'm hoping (as everyone does) that it will be a big one. Last year was really good, so I'm hoping for at least that amount. I figure, because I made about the same amount of money in 2005, and had more business expenses, that my return this year will be even better. Even if it's around the same though, I've educatedly hypothesised (say that 10 times fast...hehe) that I'll have enough of a cushion that I could easily drop to part time very soon, like say...in the next month at the outside. I'm so excited about that! Give me a sense of not only muchly needed relief, but that also there is a light at the end of the tunnel that I can actually see now.

On that note, last night I had an epiphany. I was sitting at the computer after Danard and I got home from Barb's place, looking at Caroline Myss's site. If anyone out there doesn't know who she is, you need to find out, she's fantastic. She's a world renowned medical intuitive, who has books, cd's, dvd, and does lectures all over the world. I've been studing her stuff, for about a year now. Anyway. I was looking at something on her site, and I had one of those moments where you hear a voice in your head...you know...THOSE moments. lol...

So, I don't remember what it was I was reading exactly, but this voice started talking to me...I'm assessing that I was my higher self who had frankly just become indignant to the fact that I hadn't acted on her guidance, dispite the frequent kicks in the proverbial ass, that I need to trust and take this leap of faith, instead of trying to find another way out of it (ie. the "safe" way out...) Well, she shows up, giving me this image in my mind of her standing in front of me with her hands on her hips saying (in a very booming, authoritative voice) "So, if you keep getting these intuitive hits to quit or at least drop to part time hours at the job...why the hell haven't you done that yet?!?" She continues by reminding me that "if you really trust this info that's coming through, then just freekin' take the leap, already".

Ya...I got blasted good. So, I thought about that for a while, gently reminded by one part in a Myss CD that we have that talks about how sometimes the HS will make us feel so incredibly uncomfortable in the current situation, that it will give you no other option than to make a change. So, I took that as my final hint.

Upon heading to bed, I decided to talk to Danard about this...still not really trusting what I should do with this not so new information. Yes...trust is a bit of an issue when it comes to my intuition. Ironic, being that it's my intent to do this intuitive thing for a living. So, as we were talking, I finally decided to actually make a decision. Yes...me...indecisive me, actually made a definative choice. That decision, you ask? That by no later than May 1 of 2006, I WILL be dropping my hours back to part time. That I WILL have some money saved by then. That I WILL NOT spend my income tax money on stupid shit. That no matter how much money is saved by then to cushion me, I WILL be going part time on or before May 1. Period. End of Story! Done Deal...

I've actually done some math and even if I only had $1500 saved by then, which is waaaaaayyy conservative, I'd still have enough cushion for a shortfall - income wise - of $400 / month for almost 4 months. This without taking into consideration that by then, the powers that be at work, will be screaming for everyone to take extra shifts to cover the demand of the incoming calls. So that if I absolutely have to, I can take extra shifts to cover my butt, but have the flexibility of not having to. For a while, anyway... In the meantime, I'll be busting my ass so hard that I'll be black and blue, to get this passive income at least started to cover that shortfall, and beyond, and to of course, eventually quit altogether.

So, that's where I leave off for Day 12...

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Morgana